just me..

click! :D

2010-03-20T23:44:00.001+08:00

last day.

2008-04-20T22:33:00.002+08:00

Overall, the week began great and its ending like a bitch.

The hour I reached down KL, I had skyhigh fever.
Which resulted to me sleeping the next two days doing nothing,
feeling feverish day in day out,
and now I'm coughing like an old lady with a very sore throat and voice.

Bad bad bad.

I couldn't study.
I couldn't focus.
Worse of all, I couldn't finish my assignments.
I might as well just flunk my core subject.

I suck man.
My body has been fighting this cold since my dad came back from where else but Cameron with a very bad flu and I've been playing catch under the rain and I guess it finally hit the last straw when I came back from Cameron.

Antibiotics are finished.
Exam tomorrow.
Crit tomorrow.
Home alone tomorrow.
Blaaaaahhhh tomorrow.

blablabla
rantrantrant
bitchbitchbitch
coughcoughcough

I had enough laaaaa, I don't want to hear any more shits from you two.
Can't you read me.
I. Had. Enough.
Stop ranting to me, no one can help you with your lives except for you two.
The solution may seemed to have presented there since ever, so why don't you just do it.
I don't give a fuck anymore.
It may be better off that way.

OMFG.

2008-04-19T00:49:00.006+08:00

This monday!

Episode 14 · The Blair Bitch Project
Love the name.

spoilers**
What's not to expect.
Jenny's becoming a bitch, desperately doing anything to become uber popular.
Blair returns to school after being dethroned.
Serena's trying to adapt living with Chuck.
There'll be a new chick, Georgina who's sort of into getting even with Serena.
There's a new dude that's gonna be link with Jenny which I remember who is not totally that hot.
and OH! If I'm not mistaken, there's something going on with N and V.
Now thats something to catch on.

Jenny and Nate.

mmm. Chuck.

aaannnnddd..

it's back!

Go knock yourselves out!

Let's download it and watch it together before/after we go for the sale.

Starting of non contact week.

2008-04-13T07:31:00.002+08:00

Officially.
And.
Literally.

2 hours of sleep.
I gotta stop doing that.

4-5 hours bus ride!
Pray that the bus ride goes smoothly,
we'll totally be snoring like pigs,
and that the bus dude didn't conned me.

Be down after Wed.
and lo and behold, hell breaks loose after.

What's new?

2008-04-13T00:42:00.003+08:00

I don't know what's wrong with you. You keep telling us the same thing. I don't know what can we do anymore. You won't listen. You don't seem to bother. Can't you see we're worried bout you? Why can't you change for us?
What's going on? Why are you this way now? Why?

Today,
was a long long day.
Woke up early, finally after so long went to the the dentist.
He suck man, never give me any advice or recommendation.
And I can feel emptiness at the back of the mouth. ouchie.

Met up with the guys for their site visit,
I was nice enough to tagged along,
and also didn't want to travel alone to KLConventionCenter there so yea.
HEHS.

Oh man. It rained and stopped and rained and stopped.
I was black, white, and transparent.
Not funny.

And we walked from Central Market to the old train station to Merdeka Square.
ahh shits.
Then we walked more in PC Fair.
Literally twice.

I finally got my speakers, its alright, for that price anyways.
Edifier something something.
I'm hopeless.
The guys were practically having their orgasms during the fair.

We all bought the same thumbdrives!
HAHA.

Finally left KLCC at 9.
I rushed to OneU from Kelana Jaya station to get some last minute things.
As usual.
In one hour time,
I rushed to 2 computer stores for the damn S-Video cable, bought things from Watson, went to F.O.S for 2 shorts, went to Giant for my toiletries.

Oh man.
My legs are so fucked up now.

I can't move em.
And what's new, I haven't pack yet.

Nasty. Naughty. Boy.

2008-04-11T00:39:00.003+08:00

Oh man, I suck.

Cindy's gonna read this and start shaking her head knowing what sucky person I am.
Don't tell on me ):

I couldn't finish my site analysis in time and overslept.
Waking up very very late.
And ended up going shopping -__-

Bought 3 baby tees, tube and long yoga pants.
Haha. Yes I bought long pants.
Colour was too cute.

I'm officially broke.
Again.

I duno what I'm gonna use to spend in Cameron next week.
Who wants strawberries?
I wonder if shopping would be nice there.

Haven't pack, haven't bought the freaking bus ticket yet.
Yes, we're going up by bus, its not that sad okays.
Driving up's a pain in the ass, and besides,
me and my Neo's not allowed to anyways.

Haven't seen MayYi since god knows when.
Used to see her almost every other day when I was having hols.
What, it has been a month or more?
I want to steal back those HIMYM :D

*

You've been a bad, bad boy
I'm gonna take my time so enjoy
There's no need to feel no shame
Relax and sip upon my champagne
Cos I wanna give you a little taste
Of the sugar below my waist
You nasty boy

I'll give you some ooh la la
voulez-vous coucher avec moi
I got you breaking into a sweat
Got you hot, bothered and wet
You nasty boy, nasty naughty boy

Baby for all it's worth
I swear I'll be the first to blow your mind
Now if you're ready, come and get me
I'll give you that hot, sweet, sexy lovin'

Hush now don't say a word
I'm gonna give you what you deserve
Now you better give me a little taste
Put your icing on my cake
You nasty boy

Oh no

Ooh there I go again
I need a spanking coz I've been bad
So let my body do the talkin'
I'll slip you that hot, sweet, sexy lovin'

Come on, sugar

I got you breaking into a sweat
Got you hot, bothered and wet
You nasty boy, nasty naughty boy

2008-04-09T20:34:00.000+08:00

I think I might have step on someone's tail again.

Uploading pictures a bitch.

I just saw the youtube video on Ultimate's Cheer dance and stunts division.
So proud of them.
I know I haven't been in touch with them lately.
Was suppose to go for the competition but my dad kinda grounded me.

I miss cheer and the babes ):

*

After our B.Science report submission last Wed,
things are quite chilling now.
HEHE.
QUITE.
Btech presentation next week,
gotta study study study for err..
....

Exams in 2 weeks ):
which is..
right after our non contact week.

I have no idea which subject has exams till yesterday.
Culture and Building Tech.
Is there one for Building Science?

=\

Oh man I suck.

In 3 days time,
we'll be off to Cameron Highlands for a small vaca.
Its only our 7th week this week and we all feel we really need it. BAD.

Daddy gave me the green light in letting us stay at his apartment and permission to go.
whheeeeee*

I'm finally using that apartment with friends after planning to do so last time.

Last time I went up there was in Form 2,
thats like 6 years ago
I feel so old. -__-

We're just gonna eat, sleep, sit, talk, cook! watch the tube, drink, eat, chill,
and err, study for our structure.

We should, we should, we should.

I know nuts bout bending moment, shear force, bending stress
and whatever shit stresses and design load.

Psychics.
The subject I've been trying to avoid since high school.
omg I can faint now.

Anyways,
hopefully we'll go for 3 nights, if its not too much.
the next 9 weeks is gonna be hell.
Tourist teaching annex as our final assignment.
Bah. ):

And after all that exams and assignments and submissions!
Perhentian or Redang or some beachy place with the girls!
hehe can't wait till June babes (:
I'll do some scouting now,
cross our fingers.
Remember to call your BriBri.

2008-04-08T01:47:00.004+08:00

I gotta stop obsessing.
I gotta stop noticing.
I gotta stop thinking.
I gotta stop wondering.
I gotta stop talking.
I gotta stop asking.
I gotta stop knowing.
I gotta stop hating.

No wait,
you gotta stop hating.

You fucking blowjob.

2008-03-31T17:32:00.005+08:00

I just got back from Kuching.

took like 321,786 pictures.
Half of it is in Lim's notebook though.

I came back with more bruises,
body's aching like hell,
my old back injury's hurting. =|

Dreading uni tomorrow.
Submission on Wed ):

Will definitely post bout it.

* * * *

I. Am. Not. Missing. It this time.
I miss shopping ):

Kuching.

2008-03-27T07:03:00.002+08:00

Want some souveneirs?
Haha, I'll try to hunt for peppers, Sarawak's famous for that.
If I'm not mistaken.

But yea,
I'll be off for 5 days.
I haven't gone to sleep yet, its 7 in the morning now and my flight's at 1145.
I'm err three quarter packed.
I think I overpacked again. =/

Byung told me the beach's like 40 minutes away from campus.
That sucks.
I wanna go tanning and jetski baby.

What am I doing in Kuching again?
We're going there for a site visit.
The main project was to do an Tourist Teaching Annex of the current Limkokwing campus.
Annex is like an extension.
Now, it seems its change, I missed lecture the other day. boohoo.
Doing some teaching centre.
I'm so not sure.

Aight folks, I'm gonna get some shut eye.
2 hours sleep. Enough la.

Kevin, PV, Emad, Vinie, Sue and the rest,
I'm gonna miss you guys there!
Its totally not gonna be that fun without you people.
And looks like I'm gonna be alone handling Keekee's high-ness the whole trip. (:

It's gonna be a loooooonng trip,
four fucking nights, five fucking days.

Awesome!

Just thinking.

2008-03-27T06:24:00.005+08:00

Hearing people's drama got me thinking isn't everything suppose to happen for a reason, not just cause.
Do they just call you baby because they think its charming of them to do so or do they actually mean it.
Do they say I love you as a coverline on their sexuality or because their in denial with something.
Did we come to the point where we give hot passionate meaningless kisses to one another and just pretend it didn't happen the next day.
I was just wondering, what is it that attracts them to do so, in high school it used to be quite simple.
I like you, so we kiss.
Now is, we kiss, and err what do we do now.
Why do we kiss someone who at the first place didn't cross our mind that we want to be with.
Why do they just give us kisses.
Yes, I know, their dicks raise and they get horny if your cleavage or ass was showing a lil.
I know the drill.
But don't they think beforehand too?
Don't we?!

Why do we let ourselves to get into this kinda mess,
and spent days, maybe weeks getting frustrated with whatever whenever wherever.
Making ourselves question, ponder, making us more confuse than ever.

Maybe its a one time thing.
But what if it keeps happening occasionally when there's a chance to.
Why?
What happens next?

I believe us girls, well maybe just me, tend to have this unavoidable reaction in us once we cross the line of being a lil too close with a guy, ended up being too clingy or too emotional or too involve.
Sucks. But admit it, its true.

Am I in love?
What's love.
Am I infatuated?
Probably. Maybe. Neh. Right? Doubt it.
Am I attracted?
Can't deny that. I've already sort of admitted to that.
Am I just plain horny?
Maybe. Its arguable.
Or am I just too irresistible?
Thats a laugh and a half.

Truth be told,
I do still think bout it, course I still think about it.
It wasn't a bad thing, in fact it was awesome, its weird how you can make someone feel special, different, yet meaningful without any mutual feelings.
Its stupid in a way, but a lil sweet the fact that when I hear a particular band that reminds me of small lil things or when I pack it reminds me of what I was wearing or doing or preparing at that moment at that place with that feeling.
Its a total joke to say I don't.
Hey! Shoot me, I'm a girl.
And it comes to the point, to hell with it whether he still remembers it.
Because I do, and memories are important to me, well kept in my head or heart and best yet, illustrated with photographs. Haha.
Its true, we are more emotional inside, I wish I didn't have soo many mixed confused feelings which I deep down do know the final conclusion but yet, its still there.
Once again, I've succeeded into thinking too much.

You may be reading this,
but you may know its you, or maybe not,
it may freak you out, chase you away,
but I just gotta get it out of my system.

And afterall,
we've seen it all, well some,
you told me before,
and you know I'm straight,
do we still have to play this shy act with each other?

I think we're just plain naughty.

stay tuned.

2008-03-23T02:28:00.002+08:00

Monday.
So I suppose by Tuesday I could catch it already.

hmm. Hopefully the show would be better than this clip.
bimbo Britney.
Ted's hot.
Barney's a full on player while his so totally gay and in love in real life.

Last night,
Emad showed us this clip.
I think we watched it like 2-3 times and we still couldn't stop laughing.

HAHAHAHA.

If you don't think its funny, something's wrong with you.

Another video done by the same dude.

Lol.

I don't know how guys are always on youtube and always watching the same weird thing without even telling each other before that.
Its like there's a newsletter they receive to tell them bout clips like this.

There's another one we were watching during our few hours break in between classes.
Not gonna post it up, its somewhat err, you'll get me if you see it.
Just click here and here if your curious. Haha.
We had fun watching it over and laughing though.

Arrrggghh.
It was nice staying over with the guys.
I got to steal the empty room all to myself, until someone crash last night.
Hehe.
Felt weird entering my room after 3-4 days not sleeping there.

Pv's party was awesome!
I finally downed myself that I'm gonna be red like fuck, so I'm just gonna drink and ignore it.
Pv said I'm just being neurotic :|
But anyways there was only 1 JD bottle last night thanks to Sue (:
drank straight from bottle for like a 2 whole seconds okays.
HAHAHA.
Kena bullied by guys as usual.
One guy almost did full 10 secs o.O
Kevin drank the most ._. unfair.

Next time! When we're back from Kuching.

After Monday's submission in 3 days time we'll be heading off to Kuching.
Won't be fun without the other guys ):

That thing you do..

2008-03-20T12:47:00.006+08:00

when you..
you know.

*

Okay that was then, now I'm pissed.
Pissed like boiling steam or something.
and that just sound totally wrong.

Anyways,
wasn't online surprisingly last night because stay overnight at Emad's place with Lim to do our Building Science assignment.
Since few days ago, we've been planning how to kill our time since we were suppose to note down the indoor temperature, outdoor temperature and the humidity.
So thats about 8 hours of awake time from 10pm to 6am.
Yup, when everyone's in lalaland, we're staying up waiting for the next hour to do our records.
Ain't that suuhhweeet?

Haha.
We had dinner with everyone, then later Vinie and Kev came over to hang out.
How did we kill time.
Gosh.

We watch 2 segments of Russell Peters,
we watch American Pie 6, haha,
then,
me and kev started kicking tennis balls around the house
-__-
at 3 in the morning.
Then!!
Since we had 4 balls,
I started to try to juggle.
With 3 only la haha.

kev succeeded, I succeeded waaayy later on,
Emad just couldn't be bothered.

juggle juggle juggle
wwwhheeee*

Since we have to do this for 3 nights,
we probably would be able to juggle properly by the end of the week.

Slept at 6 with 4 hours sleep,
now I know why I feel so tired, thanks to running around and juggling around.

*

Mom's being a bitch again.
Gotta run,
update later.
Blah.

*

Thinking back bout last night,
woah we're quite hardcore ehs ;P
We actually stayed up.
Though I slept at the last hour, since Lim got up and I left it to him.
Brain and body not working anymore.

Gotta get to Emad's place again after dinner.
mmm hungry.
Tomorrow night?
Parrtyy at Peewee's!

Just what I need with.

your taste still lingers on my lips Like I just placed them upon yours

Therapy.

2008-03-18T04:27:00.005+08:00

Yes!
No.

I haven't reach the amount of 10 designs, so far only 6.
I wanna sleeeeeep.

Maybe I should have told Suzy to meet on Wednesday instead. hmmm.

Anyways!
Finally after months of the writer's strike, its finally over and our shows will be back.
Awesome.

New episode of How I Met Your Mother's next Monday,
with guest star Ms Spears.
Finally!
Can't wait.

I finish watching SATC without noticing that was the last episode.
*sobs*
June! For the movie.

Dang, the trailer kinda spoiler. -__-

April 21st!
Grey's Anatomy and of course,
Gossip Girl.

aahh.
hawtness.
Where's Dan? ):

Oh this is torture, I still gotta wait?
Uni will be over then. =\

To hell, with it.

2008-03-14T01:07:00.004+08:00

I've given up.
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating.
Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.

*

Okay, maybe not.
Its better not knowing.
I got a major headache/migraine/pain in the ass since I woke up.
Obviously I skipped tutorial, I had nuts to show my tutor.
And I just found out we need to show 10 a3 if not don't bother seeing her at all.
Oh why oh why was I chosen under her ):
I'm scared.
I'm designally challenged.

Well, like I told someone, maybe I should do something that gets me high instead of stoning with the pain.
And I just only thought bout watch Sexandthecity and its 1 in the morning.
Great.
I'm not getting any anyways,
what best way than to watch it instead. ;)

Nothing keeps you high.

2008-03-11T10:33:00.002+08:00

It feels awesome how I can sleep at 4-5 in the morning, yet wake up at 9 the next day not feeling tired, but knocked out in the afternoon after I come home from uni.

Good? Not good?
You tell me.

Another awesome thing thats been keeping a smile on my face is that I ain't on probation anymore. The P sticker is coming off!
Yuen's coming in a while to sent me to JPJ, isn't that sweet of him.
Zhen Sern offered but I didn't want him to be late for class in case I wake up late and I haven't print my photo yet.
Since when guys became such darlings? (: Neh, kidding. They were always one.

and that in 2 weeks time, we'll be going to Kuching for site visit of the LimKokWing building for 5 days! Lord knows I love traveling eventhough its still within Malaysia. 5 freaking days, I doubt they'll expect us to work all day o.O I wanna look see around! and since I don't think I'm tied down to anyone, I'll be flying solo on this trip.

AND!
Sharon called me last night to ajak me on a one day trip to Malacca next month. And when its going trips with them, its alll about eating! Aren't I right?
Its unconfirm confirm. Since its gonna be 3 weeks later, yups, the Saturday right after I'm back from Kuching. Have I ask the parents? Nopes. *cross fingers*

oh shits. gtg. I'll rant later. You see, I'm a girl.

2008-03-10T00:12:00.002+08:00

It's like a fairy tale without a happy ending.
But then again maybe we are just pretending.
Why does it have to be so unfair?
Tell me that you care.

Don't you like it, now.

2008-03-07T13:33:00.004+08:00

Even my iTunes are playing better songs,
or maybe its cause
I feel good today.

...

and it better stay that way.

Uni has been bringing down since it started,
for maybe obvious reasons.
I know, I have no one to blame.
My mistake.

But its good me and a friend kinda talked things over.
Hopefully we can be as close as last time.
I miss having a sane company. =/
Wait, I miss having a company.

Edee!! I miss yoooouuuuu )):

On a lighter note,
remember once there was a lingerie warehouse sale?
Its back! I'm so sorry though today's the last day.
But if you can, get yr ass there before 7.
Damn cheap okays.

I went on wed after uni, I know I had submission the next day, but it was on the way xp
I only went for the Pierre Cardin's, it was all stocks from the last sale, but I got 4 sexy ones.
Too bad boy, I know you use to enjoy them.

Now, I cant wait for the next perfume sale.
I use to not be a perfume person.
Now, I love em (: my Live, my Delicious, my Happy, my Euphoria and my Body Shop Neroli Jasmin.
Each has it own memories,
come to think bout it. Haha.

*

Now. This. I. ~~LIKE.~~ Love.

Its back huns!
Me and the girls are going later,
it'll be all you can eat ice cream and girl talk.
Love em' both.

Its till end of April, go knock yourselves out.
I don't mind going again for a next one next month maybe,
let me know. (:

See JINZ, we got our own buffet here too!
Hehe.

I'm sure you already know it, but

I can buy more shoes now!!

Its worthy.
The previous sale, me and Ping whack what we can find (:
Hehe. We're going in a bit, which reminds me I should go and bathe now.

Dang, heater's not fix yet. :|
The dude told me its very dangerous to use it,
so I haven't been bathing for a week now.

HAHA. Hell No.
My hair how, after one day freaking oily okays.
Over moisturize -____-

whhhheeeee*
Go crazy.

deprived.

2008-03-06T17:48:00.009+08:00

May Yi.
Its 6 and you failed miserably.
I just woke up =.=

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HAHAHA.

Got ya? xD

No la.
But I woke up at noon. ):
Damn fail.
Had to rush my drawings, which is even still not 100% complete.
I draft too slow.

Hence,
I'm 1-2 hours late for submission.
Plan was to submit and had to be back in class after 2 hours for evaluation, lecture, bitching, and what not.
No, I'm not in class.
I'm waiting for class to end.
I'm too afraid to go in with my I-am-so-damn-late face o.O
and Cindy said their marah-ing them kao kao, don't go in yet.
Oh dang.

Thats not good.

))))):

Sigh* I've been walking around the studio for a while now,
and memories of first year and foundation's haunting me.
I don't know what I'm feeling,
but I know I really hate what I'm feeling.
Holidays weren't that bad, but now when reality hits you when your in uni everyday.
OUCH.

):

I use to have a smile on my face,
where did it go?

First fucking assignment finish,
I'm have to go for retail therapy.
Cat's Whiskers just started their sale reductions.
I miss buying shoes.
I still haven't found any gorgeous purse. Suggestions?

I'm so tired inside, I don't even know what I'm talking about.
2 hours sleep,
so not cool.

I suddenly feel like I got loads to do.
Cut my hair. -__- Jeffrey better trim it this time, its too damn long. My stylist refuse to cut my hair the other day.
Shop.
Settle my cpu stuff.
Go watch a movie with yuen yuen xP
Shop. Again.
Finish my SexandtheCity.
Gah, I need a goddamn tan.

hmm, that ain't a lot.

and Oh YEA!! Did I mention I'll be going to Kuching end of this month.
whhheeeeeeee* will blog bout it later la.

*

Jingle balls my ass la.

I miss you, don't I?

Just, stop.

2008-03-03T00:26:00.001+08:00

I don't think you really get me?

Just, don't waste your time.

The Pierces - I feel nothing

2008-02-28T09:25:00.004+08:00

Okays, not really.
Do I miss it?
Course I do.
sweet kisses now, weren't they.

At least to me.
Oh well, back to reality.
Which seems to hit me hard on the face this time.

The first fucking day of uni, I woke up to shower, to found out, to experience the fact that my water heater busted on me. Boohoo ):
So, just this morning, I stood 5 minutes in front of the shower stoning and yelling.
-____-
So fucking cold.

Of all the fucking days during the holidays.
Sigh.

Well, I'm off to KL Sentral to pick my classmates up, going to Selangor Pewter for a site visit, meeting at Istana Budaya first though with the lecturers.
4 friends and 1 car's following me.
Ain't it great now to be a local local.
Neh, I'm not complaining.
Oh, I pray I won't get lost.
I've studied the Google Earth yesterday together with my GPS.
heehee. Should be alright laaaa.

and hoo-fucking-ray, we've got submission on Thursday!
Wheeeeee.

Oh wow, uni has found the bitter me back.
Typical.

fat fat fat.

2008-02-25T00:31:00.000+08:00

I can't wait to see Incubus live!

Thats if, if I go for Sunburst.

Going? (:

So let's see,
what have I been doing this couple of weeks?
Shopping :D

Good times, good times.
This morning in church I suddenly had a huge strong urge to go get some pumps or flats or maybe a real nice heels, or maybe peep toe will do.
May Yi just told me f21 has those super cheap basic tees now.
I'll be - _- off in a bit.
HEHS.

Okays, I admit,
I have been shopping a lot.
I just bought some of my computer upgrade shits yesterday,
finally got my LCD monitor, 500gb HDD, nice new sleek keyboards, wireless router, and 1gb upgrade on my RAM!
I know!
Like can someone say, like finally.
and now I'm just waiting to pau one of the cpus my dad bought for his office.
HEHE.
whhheeee*
Now I get it why guys get so excited with all these techny stuff.
But ohh, its not cheap
-____-''

My dad just came back from Laos,
before he left his friend told him the cellphones are like real cheap,
so he came back with 2 pdas!
Oh sheesh, I love pdas.
But course they weren't for me since my dad was like,
your phone geng enough already rights -___-
So mean.
So now,
I'm tempted to buy a pda for my own.
the one you flip flip or sliiiiidddee and you got the qwerty keyboards.
weeeeeee.
But I've been aiming for an Ipod.

Something to reward myself for..
well, just because. (:
So shaddup.

But but,
Silver or Black? xD

*

There was something where I couldn't carry on whether it made me guilty or not.
My bad, I lead you on.
But sometimes things just don't work out.
And it isn't, and I doubt it will anytime soon.
J, I think we should just not push it.

I don't like being bitchy.
But then again...

*

On a lighter note,
like I said! Class is starting tomorrow.
Met the girls just now for diner,
we shared beef lasagna, maggi goreng and loh si fun in Williams.
HOW TO NOT FAT I TELL YOU.
Some more the other day we went to Hartamas Square and had a normal dish each with tit bits of fried stuff and small pizza.
=\
It's a good thing we shared, but you girls are still so slim.
T.T
issh.

Retail therapy always works. (:
Though I didn't buy much,
just bought 2 basic tees, 1 spag and hairbands.
I seem to be getting into hairbands lately.
I remember my classmate, Lim said I look so ah poh -___-
MEANIE.

Bahhh.
I guess I don't really mind anymore if ppl turn their backs on me in uni.
I should be there learning and shit.
And I'm gonna.
Well, try my very best for now.

Oh.
No more shits please. I'm gonna strangle someone already.

I'm so fat its soooooooo not funny anymore.
This week onwards, I'm gonna do my fucking best with keeping up-to-date with my work and get back to my exercise routine, maybe I should give yoga another shot.
And stop laughing or snickering la, its not gonna be funny when I clobber you.

flabbergasted.

2008-02-24T15:52:00.002+08:00

Class starts tomorrow.
Architecture Culture 201 and Design 201.

OMG.
I'm not ready.

.....

I think should go shopping now.
Ciao.

Aly & Aj - Slow Down

2008-02-16T22:51:00.003+08:00

'' I need a little time, to see what you're made of
I know whats on your mind
You're headin' straight for love

Let's not rush, you're moving way too fast
We can figure it out, we can make this last
We don't have to be so serious
You need to

Slow down
I'm not goin' anywhere
Slow down
If you care, I need a little time for air
If you just let me breathe
Maybe I'll stick around
If you slow down

I wanna little space, a little less attention
You see it on my face
Don't need an explanation ...''

eh ehs.

2008-02-15T18:48:00.002+08:00

-_____--

cock-eyed!!

HEHE. XD

......

I know I damn syok sendiri.

Clean slate.

2008-02-14T03:36:00.009+08:00

Not bad, not bad.
My bitter days are drifting away slowly.

Had lunch and coffee with Shidah, Sandra and her beau, Brian.
((:
Its always nice catching up with 'em.

Came home with the urge to shop. Badly.
Grab Ping the moment we were both reach home at the same time to Cats Whiskers.
Wahlao.
Storewide discount!!
We're going DP branch tomorrow. HEHS.
Obviously I didn't get any tops because I'm too fat now.
But I managed to sweetened up myself with 2 heels and pair of shorts.
Ping bought 2 dresses and pair of leggings.
teehee, I'm so stealing :P

Awesome isn't it!
Damn, MayYi's getting to me now.

After dinner, went out for a movie then spent passing midnight pigging out on Roti Tisu.
Thanks, again, for taking me out. (;

Watched One Missed Call. -___- Don't like the ending.
Yes yes. I almost screamed a few times, music was pretty creepy as usual.
I'm not surprised if ppl start using that as their ringtone.

...

Back to my book!
xoxo T.T goddamn addict.

Oh yea! Before I forget,

Happy Valentine's Day!!
mwahs to all (:
go make love,
you know you want to.

KellyClarkson - Maybe

2008-02-12T13:15:00.000+08:00

I don't want to be tough
And I don't want to be proud
I don't need to be fixed and I certainly don't need to be found
I'm not lost.

Then maybe.

Nopes.
Not posting all.
Might just be too freaky.

No regrets boii !

I should be use to this.
Assmagnet -___- (no offense Jinz :D)
Am not saying you are (Really.),
just a saying.
I guess I just have the shittest luck even on a different page.
HAHA. I'm so weird.
Damn, maybe I should follow Edee's footsteps. (French ehs? ;P)
Edeeeee!! Get your ass online tonight.
Can't stand it here anymoooorrreeeee.
I doubt I'll be a miss anyways.

I should go now, going to pyramid and tonight got Kenny's gathering thingy.

WHY IS EVERYONE LEAVING?!
and to Australia.
Irony is when they graduate in third year, I'll ~~probably~~ hopefully be going there in my fourth year, which is 2010 la omg if you don't know how to count and don't know what year I'm in now.

bitterbitterbitter.

I should just change my name to bitter jean.
hmm. Doesn't sound too bad. Sounds like billie jean actually.

omg SHUTS.

Oh. My. God.

2008-02-09T22:36:00.000+08:00

MY CHEEKBONE'S BRUISE ))))))))))):
Sakit sial.

cb I'm so bored,
even looking at the screen boringly.

Everything's being a bitch.
I was suppose to be back to civilization like this morning, but somehow I'm easily manipulated so what the hell, I'm still in Seremban.

Alright, Seremban's ain't that bad.

Its just that I've been here since the 6th and I've already seen almost all my shows and omg AND I finish all 4 Gossip Girl books in 3 days I can't even read the first page of the 6th book anymore.

aahhhhh BAAHHH.
If only there was more angpaus I'll be okay.

I miss shopping.
I miss window shopping in Bangsar.
I miss lunchies and din dins.
I miss my room.
I miss my plasma.
I miss PJ la fuck me.

cibai no one replying me on msn,
I'm going the fuck off.

Don't ask,
I have no fucking idea why I've been so emo for the past couple of weeks.

You know you love me.

2008-02-06T22:33:00.001+08:00

As if my luck/day hasn't been totally awesome,
before getting into the car before dinner,
I slammed my face into my car door after opening it.
-________-
ouch? noo.
double OUCH.
Bruise on my cheeks now )))))):

ugh.

I've been on Gossip Girl to keep my mind of ~~someone~~ something.
Oh, don't look at me like a freak, I know you love them too.
So, stfu.

Went to Edee's place on Sunday, her sister has the books!
*Will blog bout my
Hehe, I'm too cheap to buy all 11 books.
Just finish one and a half book.

It's so different.
Okay la, not that different.
Their style's the same and other stuff.

ANYWAYS.

You know how is it when you read the book then watch the movie and feel disappointed like Harry Potter or Narnia or Da Vinci Code.
This is the other way around -___-
And how (at least for me) after watching Eragon, which totally sucked, but later on reading the book got me hooked, was much better.
I can't help but say I'm tad disappointed reading the book comparing it with the hit show.
But the book's good, wished I read it before I watched the show.

**Spoiler alerts if your interested in reading the book and don't wanna ruin it**

In the book,
the BIG thing I notice,
Jenny H, has huge boobs, like 34D, seriously. At the age of fourteen. O.o
and so thats why she's an outcast.
Dan. omg. Dan Dan, the oh-so-hot Dan. Isn't that hot in the book, which is a total spoiler cause I love Dan. His like this dark, emo person which writes poetry and yes, reads alot but reads bout sadistic things like hell and stuff -___- Not so cool anymore, is he now.
And OHHH!! Vannessa's bald -_______________- Is totally in love with Dan secretly, terbalik from the show.
Blair? Still the same ol' queenbee. One word, bitch.
Serena? Well, lets just say her reason for coming back to Upper East Side is totally different. And, she's wilder. But she's still that carefree person. And her brother..
Erik, a total charm....and older. Like in college.
and also Chuck and Nate aren't like total buddies, the 4 of them are just old friends.
Nate's a HUGE stoner, and as weak.
Chuck's...hardly written about so far.
Isabel and Kati are..still the same.
and oh yea! Blair has a younger brother, Tyler.
Her father's still gay.
and Rufus?! Yes, I think his totally hot too, for a dad. His another loser -___- turn off sial.
and Lily's not divorced.
and Eleanor remarried and has blonde hair. (I think)
And and, gossips spreads by passing note, by mouth or the site -___-
Not so advance with the IM last time I guess.
and lastly, those who hook up in the show not neccesarily hook up in the book, that, I won't spoil.

So yea, its basically overally a turn off reading the book, though its equally scandalous. wait, MORE scandalous.
and the thought of Taylor Momsem with huge boobs is OMG. o.O
Can you see her with it?

Can you? Can yoooouuuu?
It's just weird :|

Since I'm on the topic,
in case you Gossip Girl lovers haven't catch it yet,
they just showed a latest episode, Gossip Girl Revealed.
Err, I wouldn't say its that worth much of a download (unless your a huge fan and its quite fast anyways), cause they replayed the episode 'Pilot' with behind the scenes stuff and interviews from the cast and never before scenes.

I'm so ~~bored~~ nice I posted some clips ((:

Deleted scene of Nate and Serena

Bloopers. Outtakes.

Really cleared my mind off.
Back to the book.
(:

Next show to catch: Lipstick Jungle :D

Why so cold?

2008-02-06T12:10:00.000+08:00

New year, new shits.

I didn't expect this to backfire to me ):
I knew it would be unfair eventually.

jean jean jean, I guess she'll never learn.

I give up.

Is that so wrong?

2008-02-01T23:17:00.000+08:00

Just a few days ago,
I had so many things in mind for Sat.

Either I go to Genting for a reunion with my primary school mates,
or I'm out with May Yi,
or dinner with Sandra, Shidah and Teri which was not really planned but intended to ):
or stay at home and enjoy the moment,
or be with that you,
or out with Rachel and the girls later in the night,
or I don't remember anymore =\

How am I gonna do all that you say.
I have no idea.
Maybe the Big Guy will help me figure out.

Well instead,
my mom don't really allow me to go up to Genting due to the excuse of 'It's not a good time to be going UP THERE' and 'phobia llaaaaaaa',
May Yi's mom don't let her out ):
Teri's busy anyways and can't make it, so maybe next week,
can't 'enjoy the moment' since she's not going back to Sban -_____-|| DAMN PEI OKAY.
and I didn't get no reply but can't laa anyways, -___- pei again,
might be able to go but not sure if momster allows ):

guess I'm not doing anything after all.

sulksulksulksulk.

I feel like a clingy bitch ):

omg damn freaking pei pei pei now.
):):):):):):):):
where are you now?

OH GOOD LORD,
Jason's coming to my rescue.
I love him (:(:

Edee (:

2008-01-29T22:48:00.000+08:00

Although we haven't been in the same course for a year now, half the time in uni I'll be scouting for your bubbliness in the plaza to hang out (:
Despite how busy we were in uni, I'm gonna miss those times where we would meet in the library to talked, gossip and bitch. Who kissed who, who haven't kissed who, who's gay or not, shopping, (argh!) design, my sadistic love life, family, practically almost everything.
I'm sooooo gonna miss you woman!
Uni won't be the same without you. ):
You had to go larh, leave us all behind. LOL.
But yea, I'm happy for you getting a place in Curtin.
Don't leave during your third year there, I might be there!
Keep in touch and hope I would have enough dough to visit you during our sem break.
Love you Edee (:
xoxo*

addicted to.

2008-01-29T19:32:00.000+08:00

The morning paper
Look in the mirror
On your key chain
Or in the coffee spoon

On your shirt sleeve
In the flat-screen
In your mailbox
I'm Breathing over you

Come on baby, when will you see
That you and I were meant to be
And now I got my target on track
Baby you should know that I'm so good at that

Run to where you want, run to where you want
I am gonna find you
There aint no distance far enough
My love's gonna find you
Run to where you want, run to where you want
But may I remind you
There aint no engine fast enough
My love's gonna catch you

In your top drawer
In your cheque book
On your cellphone
By your easy-chair
In the next room
Behind the curtain
Can't escape me
I'm watching everywhere

Come on baby, when will you see
'Cause you and I were meant to be
And now I got my target on track
Baby you should know that I'm so good at that

Run to where you want
Run to where you want
I am gonna find you
There ain't no distance far enough
My love's gonna find you

Run to where you want, run to where you want
but may I remind you
There aint no engine fast enough
My love's gonna catch you

Why waste your energy
No point in fighting
Let your heart surrender to your destiny

And this world's not big enough
For you to hide for long
In this game of hide and seek
There's nowhere left to run

Run to where you want, run to where you want
I am gonna find you
There ain't no distance far enough
My love's gonna find you
Run to where you want, run to where you want
but may I remind you
There ain't no engine fast enough
My love's gonna catch you

Catch You, Catch You, Catch You, catch you, catch you, catch you, catch you, catch you.

Like omg.

2008-01-27T21:44:00.000+08:00

I still can't get over the fact that I'm gonna be in second year degree.
Like woah.

I got loads of people to thank for.
(:

You know how I got up this morning?

With both parentals shouting downstairs,
' OBAMA WON THE ELECTION! '
' OMG I CAN SEE THE ELECTION RESULTS!! '
' HEY, ASTRO'S BACK ON!! '

Like seriously.
-_______________________-''

I woke up like wtf.
Lighting was a bitch last night. Parents off the main switch, and when on back, HAHA, Astro didn't start up till this afternoon.
Happened before, but after 2 hours it was on again.

I tell you la omg, I've nvr seen them so restless or distress on something till whenever something's wrong with the TV or Astro.
My dad even called me last night while I was out asking how come the astro won't start,
and the moment I entered my house, 'Jean can you check the switches, Astro still not working'
Seriously damn swt.

They can't live without the TV.
LOLOLOLOLOL.
Bribery. Ngeks.

Cindy. Tagged. Me.

2008-01-26T00:21:00.000+08:00

''it won't be so hard if you tell me feel it too...''

What's a meme Cindy? I don't get it -__-
HEHS.
This was quite fun I agree, practically look through all the pictures I had,
brought up unnecessary memories and good ones too. (:
I miss everyone.

Since I've been told I hardly or don't post pictures often,
here goes.
I posted more than one.
Cindy, we've never been so free in our uni life until holidays.
sigh.

1. The most recent picture of you. Where was it taken, when was it taken and who took it? How was your mood?

Snapping myself upside down while my mother was nagging me at the other end of the couch in my living room -__-
HEHS. I was semi-hyper waiting for Sharon to come pick me up.

2. A picture of you with a friend. Who is this friend? How did you meet him/her? How long have you known him/her?:

I like this picture weihs.

lol.

Poon May Yi and Jeany.

NYE*
awwwwwwww
she bent down to be the same height as me.
I'm not that short okays, just not tall.

cipeks. Bluffed me when Adeline intro us, said they were sisters -__-
and yes, I bought it. Not Funnnyyyyy.
Known her since Form 5, so thats 3 years. We were cheermates y'all. (;
Used to think you were bitchy moi, and now I can almost talk to her bout everything,
but your still bitchy la babe. xD
HEHS. why laaaa shift to spk, miss you ): shopping tomorrow!

3. A picture of you with your spouse/partner. How long have you known each other/been married/been going out?

HAHA. I would do it like how Adeline did her Mr. Mummy.
But I'm too darn lazy to draw.

~~80%~~ single and hey, its not so bad after all. :D

But vday's around the corner -___- peih*

4. A family picture:

Parentals birthday party. (:
4 days in between.

yes yes.
My dad has a beard.
I look like my parents.
We all love to smile with our teeth.
We don't look like chinese -__-
and omg jean put on weight. Again.

5. A picture of you making a peace sign:

Excuse my facial expression T.T

Our very wrong attempt in trying to be lala. -____-
this was the only picture I could find that I was doing that, peace sign is a nono for me.

6. A picture of you making a yo dawg sign:

okay la, its not a total yo dawg sign, more of a peace sign.
But its senget aights. xD
-___-''

7. A picture of you in your Halloween costume:

Geeky specs? Check.
Bad hairdo? Check.
Very comfy smkdj shirt for doing work? Check.

I know I'm darn lame.

tak de la. Halloween last year busy doing assignments as you can see.

8. A picture of you on holiday. Where was it?

Langkawi last December with Kev and Sheena.

Grr. I goddamn miss that trip.

9. A picture of you in your workplace/school:

SmkDJ - Merbau 05'

Kinetic Aesthetic
First year, first sem.
I miss Ean and Kent weeiihhhh =\
Our rides to uni and back.

10. A picture of you in a weird or random place. Where is this place? Who took this picture?

Err, ou can't really see the point of it, but I climb up this err concrete thingie trying to capture the full view of the building and randomly asked Steffi to snap my pic since I was about 2metres up from ground level.
Syok sendiri, I know.

11. A picture of you on stage:

This is a bit embarrassing,

Majlis Anugerah Cemerlang -___-

The only picture I can find that was on stage.
You see, I'm not a public speaking person, so stage is another nono for me.

12. A picture of you playing sport:

Before you say anything,

Cheerleading is a sport.
Right, babes?

Another sad case for me,
I didn't get to perform much but hey not because I suck okays. (I rather think so, so shaddup)
Now look at Ultimate, performing for Anglia,
and I can't see them perform ):

Can't tell which one is me?
The FATTEST one la.
Wouldn't take so long to find, all pun stick skinny. tsk tsk tsk.

13. A picture of you with a celebrity:

Sumolah!

Gurmit Singh.

Terry Gallyot.

Ean, I had to put yr picture alongside.
Ean being Ean.

14. A picture of you drunk:

My 19th birthday.
:D

I slipped while trying to squat down.
and the first picture was probably when I straighten myself, looked at everyone and burst out laughing like usual.
and Sandra had to help me cut the cake?
woah, was I wasted -__-
No more Graveyard for me. Peevee la.
But it was all fun.
I'm suprised I didn't sit on the cake instead. ;D

15. A picture of you looking mad. Why were you mad?

More of geramness.

This was my closest 'mad' looking,
since techincally mad means insane.
-____-
So mad I wanted to eat Teri's pony.

16. A picture of you looking sad. Why were you sad?

What else?

Sandra lah. Can laughed until like that somemore.
HAHA.

17. A picture of you looking WEIRD. Why were you looking weird?

Because I was tipsy.
- . -

Don't think I've ever seen my eyes so big.

18. A picture of you wearing something strange:

HAHA.
picture says it all.

19. A picture of you wearing formal:

After CP111 presentation.

The only picture I can find dressed formal.
And its not that formal also ._.

20. A picture of you wearing a swimsuit:

Ferringhi beach.

I know I posted this recently,
and I don't have full picture la, unnecessary flaunting xP

21. A picture of you wearing PJs:

Thats what I wear to sleep, no PJs.
I am wearing shorts okays.
=.=

22. A picture of you with an animal:

Fluffy.

Rights?

23. A picture of you eating or with food:

Borneo Rainforest.

Eating the proclaimed chunted CharKueyTeow cause it was prepared by the chef that cooks or cooked for Sultan of Brunei. hmm.

I had to put this ;P

Its still with food.

Meal prepared by me n Ping.
Nicholas looks damn peih cause we've been snapping pictures and all he wants to do is eat the damn chicken.
My mom looks damn cute. haha.

24. A picture of you in black and white:

errr.
speechless*
Wait, I think this is one of the few pictures I have with my hair up.

HAHA.
I tag May Yi, Sue Hsia, Rachel, Teri, Sandra, Adeline, Wei Zhi, Jinz!! (if you got time la) and to whoever who's damn free, like me and Cindy (:

Do it. Do it. I likey looking at pictures.

ehs, JOM.

2008-01-25T00:29:00.001+08:00

*

eeehhhh mana ni PV.
We is suppose to meet online so he can tell me whats nice in Chiang Mai to buy :D
but his not
AHAHAHA.

May Yi didn't calling me just now ):
got stuff to tell you laaaaaaa tadi.
I think I lupa edy so long.

Bump into Kai Xian just now.
Like woah its been ages since I last saw him.

OH YEA.
Chee Yuen.
WHY AREN'T YOU ONLINE.
When I want to chat with you bout something, your always MIA,
and vice versa.
HAHA.
omg lunch tomorrow rights.
I just remembered -___-
No nudges from yuen :|

I wanna shop!!!

stupid randomness T.T

The Fifth Semester

2008-01-24T16:45:00.000+08:00

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.

I love you Jordan!!
Thanks to him, I finally gathered my guts to call LUCT.
yes yes, makan on me.
training on you (:

I pass!!!!
I'm through to SECOND YEAR.
WOOT!
No more manual drawing!
No more english!
Right? I think.
Wait, don't tell me.
Let me enjoy this moment.

But shit, my 101 got problem.
Better go next week to clarify it.

And I was right,
my dad DID KNEW MY RESULTS.

cipeks.
The wonder he so chilling la that day.
But still,
issh.

not a brat, just spoilt.

2008-01-22T15:50:00.000+08:00

Beginning of the year,
means beginning of everything.
Which happens to be soooo annoying.

*shrugs*

Have to go renew my car insurance,
renew my roadtax,
renew my Captor satelite thingy,
renew my license (which is not so annoying cause GOODBYE P-LICENSE),
oh yea, my Padini membership, MPH membership, Big Bookshop membership, One Card....
this is annoying.
so many other renew expiring things but I can't remember,
hopeless.

Great, just found out I gotta renew my insurance first only can renew my roadtax.
Great and where is that stupid letter sending me bout my insurance renewal.
omg la, where to renew all this?
I'm trying not rely on my dad's secretary, but
I'M A MESS -___-

OMG RESULTS.
Stupid student online portal cheat people one, how many donkey years also haven't update yet.
I got 2 options.
Wait for the letter to arrive which probably be within 2 weeks before feb 18th,
or,
call Registry and ask them straight.
I already feel like crying.
Cindy said loads of people failed.

SAY IT ISN'T SOOOOOOOOOO.
I'll be a better student I promise.
:D?

Penang equals FAT.

2008-01-22T12:23:00.000+08:00

''I may be inconsistent, but not all the time.''

I swear.
I don't think I've ever eaten so much in my life before.
Seriously.

This was so totally a roadtrip for our stomachs. :D

started off the day with dim sum in Megah.
Left KL around 10 ish, reached the island around 5 ish?
Stupid highway only allowed occasionally 3 lanes cause they were doing up the roads, more like chilling by the tractor T.T

HAHA.

Our first meal in Penang was Pizza Hut, stuffed crust.
Our first buys were in Watson buying shower gel cause most of us didn't bring any.
After that, Jason realized he left his toothbrush and towel and so did I with the towel.
-____-
Staying in a apartment we weren't sure whether they'll provide towels. =\
but yea, they did.

tsk tsk. KL people.

mmm finally.

Jason.

Day 1 practically spent half the day in the car, checked in, rest, went to the beach, pool, eat, then shop.
HEHE.
went to Gurney and ordered like 6-7 dishes and we all somewhat shared.
mmm. the Hor Jian's the bomb.
and I don't even eat oyster.

Bayu Emas Apartment.

Me, Sharon, Christine, Jason

Sharon doing her poses in the pool.

The couple.

Zhen Sern.

damn emo la all your pix.

Met up with Jason's friend, Audrey.
WAH. She spent probably an hour or so explaining to us where to eat the next day, drew us a map, gave us a list from point A to point Z.
Just by hearing her talking bout her 15 types of food choices written down on the list made us so damn full already.

Day 2.
We all woke up slighty late -___-
Me n Zhen Sern hangat-hangat wanna go tanning cause we're fair like fucks and I hate tan lines.
Headed to town to eat again.
HAHA.
was too late for roti already, so we went on the search for Sisters Char Kuey Teow.
I would say all charkueyteows taste the same to me =/
Went on the hunt for the famous cendol.
mmm. feel like having one now.
Got so totally lost with the one way road when it turned out to be just next to us -___-

>
Tanning buddy (:

EA*

I like this picture.

aah,
the coconut, a good book, my mp3, shades, sun.
Perfect.

Don't you just love the beach?

I do. (:
More if you were here with me ;)

Oh yea.
Over this trip.
I fell in love.

Jetski, baby!!

whhhheeeeeeeeee..
Excuse me la, its my first time.
Damn syiok okays.
woohoo!
One of the most exhilarating.
Zhen Sern said I almost threw him off a lot of times.
Hehs.
YOU almost flung me out toooooo.

50 bucks for 20 mins.
so ex )=
took turns with ZS.

cipeks.
zhen sern so kamching with the jetski dude he gave us 2 free coconuts later on when I paid 5 bucks for one earlier.
-____-
I think he like you la zs.

Though he said he would remember us if we come back again next time and give us 'special' which I think is actually a package itself.

Sadly I don't have any pictures of us on it yet.
Have to get it from Christine.
No close ups though.
Hehs.

woot.
I must go again.

Told my dad bout it,
he was like,
'You don't know how to ride bicycle but can jet ski? Sure or not one.'
-_______-
damn mean la he.

We went back to Gurney in the night again,
as usual there was plenty of people selling those gun thingie which blows out thousands of bubbles in one pree.
All of us were reminicsing bout blowing manually when we were small.
and Sharon bought one to amuse ourselves while waiting for Jason and Christine's surprise at 2245 that night.

Everyone had fun with it.
Popping each others' bubbles. ;D

Turns out their surprise was having this artist sketch them.

I didn't take the end result -___-

Gurney Plaza.

Went to Taiping the next day,
mmmm, the hor fun was very nice.
haha.

So yes,
3 days of gluttony.
If I were to list out what we ate, it'll probably freak me out.
I'm so sick of Chinese food now =\

Until next time (:

Penang 08'

Infatuation.

2008-01-22T03:14:00.000+08:00

"We are the people our parents warned us about."

Jimmy Buffett

This month's gonna be busy busy busy.
HAHA.
I hope -__-
Farewell dinner with Edee and friends this Saturday.
I'm gonna drag Kent along since its gonna be IA people.
xD Lost AS soul.
Go-carting this Saturday too? But unsure.
And I don't even know whether I'll be back by then since I'm going back to Pahang this Thurs.
Gotta brush up my acad skills before uni starts.
Gotta do some reading.
Gottaa..prepare for uni next sem.
zomg. mati la.
I bet Kevin's acad skills will be super fast -__-
I should go work at my Dad's. (Don't even laugh.)
Buck up myself and in the mean time earn some money :D
I'm eyeing on an Ipod.
mmm. 160 GB.
Carrying all my mp3s and videos with me.
woohoo. I can start dreaming now.

Penang trip, up next (:
Hehs.

Where are you now? ):

A beautiful mistake.

2008-01-18T00:12:00.000+08:00

Bah.
I haven't finish packing yet. -__-
Don't have the mood to cause I've put on so much weight this holiday.
So not cool, jeany.

If it wasn't for Cindy, it wouldn't have cross my mind that I should be buying my computer aided crap CDs for future use.
ArchiCad 11, Artlantis, AutoCad and other more goodies I can scout for.

=\

I'm getting boring.

lalalalalalallaaaaa.

-_____-

Packing this time reminds me of last month =\
It's all coming back to me now.
HARD.
Haha.
I'm thinking too much again, its not even funny anymore.
BAHHHH.
I miss everything o.O

Ah well,
see you in 3 days. (:

Memories in photographs*

2008-01-17T01:34:00.000+08:00

yesterday. ;)

Daddy said yes. XD
Although he gave me a long -_________- stare,
with my mom shrugging off her shoulders,
both going 'I don't know la, up to you loh'.

ngeks.
Another vacation.
ZhenSern you better not ditch me.
HAHA.

whheeee*
the beach, the food, the company, dvds, and ohmygod the sun is gonna be blazing hot....
But feels kinda weird though, like something's missing =/
Its good I'm getting my ass up on this trip, need some fresh air and to get out from here with so many thoughts floating in my head.
Although nothing can beat Langkawi. (:

*slaps self back to reality*

I miss Langkawi. ):

ahhh.
whoever wanna buy dvd let me know before Friday aights. ;P
already got orders from Ms Edee for Grey's Anatomy.
speaking of GA.
cb. I just watched episode 10 and suddenly to be continue -____-
MAYYI HAVE U DOWNLOAD EPI 11 YET?
mine damn slow. =\

Edee ciaoing to Curtin in less than a month )=
You bitch. Go without me. ):
Gonna miss you like hell,
not be able to see you in uni ranting/bitching/cursing/gossiping bout everything.

YES she knows I love her.
Question. Do we both seemed to looked a bit horny here? -___-

Cindy!! I just found this picture and there's yoou.

Edee . Steffi . Jeany . Ndaa
and what's Foundation without us 4 babes (:

Looking back at our pictures. I MISS FOUNDATION.
when my life wasn't THAT complicated -__-
and stresss? compared to now? BAH.

We shall hang out next week!!
and for your birthday this 30th?
Let's go out baybeh!

Loves* (:

a little birdie told me that

2008-01-14T17:07:00.000+08:00

. . . . . . . .

RESULTS IS OUT TOMORROW.

I can officially die now.
Stupid new student ID, stupid student portal on the website which enables us to check our results at that moment, stupid, stupid, STUPID.

I know I'm gonna fail this particular subject,
cause that @%!#!$%@ didn't want to accept my work and ask me to appeal.

-_____________________-

I. AM. SO. DEAD.

):

*
wheeee.
poonmayyi coming back tomorrow.
Presents!
HAHA. kidding la :D you know me.

fix it, woman.

2008-01-14T11:33:00.000+08:00

I realize there's no secrets between friendship.
Oh no.
Its not what you think.

Word gets around.
Somehow I've started this or ended that.
'I did what..?'
'I have whhhaattt..?'
'I said that..?'
'I had WHAT..?'
Hrm.
I know, everyone bitches bout everyone.
Kinda sucks eh.
Once someone knows your secret, and you accidently or intentionally stepped on their tail.
boom.
Out goes the stories.

Yes.
I may be one of them.
Haha.
Karma baby.
Don't worry, secret's safe with me.

I guess this obviously happens to everyone.
Sucks.
Comes to the point you do not know who to turn to.
Keeping it to yourself's bad for health, seeing a pysch's too expensive and that does not include my cousin -__-

Having mix feelings now.
Lost, disappointed, confuse, anxious, guilt, anger, vulnerable, worry, frustrated, euphoric.
How do I fix this.
What did I get myself into.
Now everything's just gone complicated, wish it was easy.

''Its just right in front of you,
all you gotta do is..
take that chance.''

If daddy says yes ;D

2008-01-13T22:47:00.000+08:00

oh sheesh.
2 of my friends just went offline simultaneously.

YUP.
If he does, I'm off to Penang this Friday, Saturday and Sunday.
wheeeee!
The beach, the food, the DVDs!
But ahh, not as many hunks like Langkawi. =/

Thanks for inviting me along (:
I love last minute trips.
HAHA.
You 3 babes are invited too.
But Shidah can't cause she just came back from her one month trip to Europe. Can't beat that.
Didn't really ask Sandra cause I know her loverboy's coming to town. ;)
and TERI, I've been MIA with the net and hp cause my damn line's still barred and parents are pissy with me using their line -___- and I couldn't catch you online ):
WANNA GO OR NOT? We eat, eat, eat!!

Going with Zhen Sern, Jason, Sharon and Christine.
Jason's driving up.
HEHS.

We is going there chilling.
Yes, I know.
Again? Not enough ke jeany?
HAHA.

But ahh. This time's different.
We're going to chill and eat!!

Oohh.
Bring it on baybeh!
Till then, I better cut down on food intake from today onwards first.

Hrm.
I notice I'm always hopping into people's vacation. =/
Shidah's, Kevin's. Now, Jason's.
But at least not self invited la :D
teehee-

When am I planning my own goddamn one with most of my love ones!
When am I going down south instead!
When am I going for my next date! okays, random and unnecessary -__-

and BOY, we ~~HAVE~~ MUST go somewhere before uni starts.
If not, GRRRRRRR! (:

oh i'm so boring.

2008-01-13T00:51:00.000+08:00

Yes, you caught me.
I've been moping up in my room or in front of the plasma whenever I get the chance to, watching Veronica Mars.
I'm so hooked on to that show.
I remember waiting for the download to complete for weeks since I kept dumping other stuff in and made it real slow with the others completed. -__-

Veronica Mars.
She's got attitude.

Kirsten Bell

Logan Echolls.
Arrogant, rich, spoilt, mean, basically a jackass,
but his effing hot.

Jason Dohring
If you think he looks familiar, he was the human for the show 1000 deeds for Eddie McDowd on Disney.
err..his father's the chairman of Neopets and he has 2 pairs of twin siblings o.O
wth.
and his married T.T
ahhh..sooo hooooottttt.

and now,
I still got the finale episode of Season 1, not wanting to watch it yet cause its so addictive and since season 2 is only 6% with season 3 downloaded at 85%.
-_____- how to watch like that.

They canceled the show after season 3 )=
boohoo.

up next,
SexandtheCity!!

and noooooo.
I DON'T WANT TO KNOW MY RESULTS.
Not. Just. Yet.

20 mins wasn't enough.

2008-01-11T02:57:00.000+08:00

I can't blog anymore.
Too boring, too lazy, too blah.

I have a love/hate relationship with holidays.

sigh*
One of my classmate just told me he failed 2 main core subjects.
IS RESULTS OUT?
OMG LA.
I don't want to know yet.
Don't want, don't want, don't want.
DON'T TELL ME.

lalalalalalalalala.

hrm.
Been feeling lost for the past few weeks.
Like something's missing.
Not ready, too soon, too.. O.o
Confuse.
Clueless.
Head's spinning round and round,
butterflies with other crawly insects fluttering and err crawling in my stomach.
I ~~should~~ can't stop.
I'm giving in slowly.
So many things that reminds me.

Do I want to?
Now? Probably not.
Later? Probably yes.
Is it right? Dunu.
.___.
Great, back to square 1.

Seems like these days I can't talk about things to people like I used to.
=/

Not a very nice feeling.

MAYYI, get your ass online la.
go find a hotel got no 12am rule :D

2008-01-11T01:25:00.000+08:00

..I hear your name in certain circles
And it always makes me smile
I spent my time just thinkin about you
And its almost driving me wild..

Missing You - Tyler Hilton

Faster Kill Pussycat

2008-01-08T12:11:00.000+08:00

I miss my neo )=
and I know its only been 4 hours since I last saw it.
But shits, I need it -___-
Of all days to service, I had to take in when I'm meeting Sandra and have to do COD which had been delayed for err, 2 weeks plus?
Suppose to go ou like at 12, but everyone's too spoilt to take a cab *coughsmomcoughs*
Fine la, I hate taking cabs too.
HateHateHate.
I used to take em everyday from kj lrt since the bus stops there, which passes KDU for god know what reason and maybe I should have asked whether if I could be dropped off there then I'll walk home to lose some weight and save some money, but wtf la, that was 2 years ago. O.O OMG. 2 years ago. =\
I suddenly feel so old again.

Off topic again -____-

Can't believe I can't live without my car for just a few hours, bugger's in the workshop now getting prim up.
Thank goodness the rims cover cost like only 20 bucks ish.
If not, HAILAT.

OOHH whheee!
his done.

ciaoss y'all.

ahhh shits.
i bet they washed my car nicely, and its raining the fuckout now.
!#@$!#&%!#@

2008-01-07T23:28:00.000+08:00

Show encrypted text

the most peih of all the other peih days

2008-01-06T00:32:00.001+08:00

wtf.

Let's just say today was SO DAMN PEIH even shopping didn't really slightly interested me today.
Flea market is damn 7 boring la.

Today was another day where I had more zha dou moments than usual.
-__-

I already forgot the first one.

Oh yea. Bought 3 novels and earrings in Curve this afternoon, dropped Ms May Yi back to her place only to realize its gone. Yes, literally. Babe couldn't teman me back to Cine to check out
Watson cause I MIGHT have left it there, but anyways I had time so wth.
TAK DE PUN. !$@#!$%!^!# Not cool. thats like money weih. But wth since I'm there, I
went and buy 2 more novels -__-

Went back home to realize the lost stuff was crammed at the passenger side of the car -_______________________________-
I didn't know whether to laugh or cry.

Went to church. WOW. I must have missed mass so long, it was the first time experiencing my church air-conditioned.
Parking was a hassled as usual, so as we were walking in the starting hymm has..well, started.
First time I see so many humans on a Saturday evening mass o.O Must be the power of AC.

Decided to try upstairs thinking to myself,
omg my phone is not on vibration mode, what if my phone rings halfway, gotta settle down, gotta settle down now to change the mode, but aihya, my phone's been dead lately, okay chill.
Mana tau when I reach my seat which was directly in front of the altar and the first row somemore, exactly right after the priest had said, Let us have a moment of silence for our something.
My phone rang.
-___-

aaahhhh, I'm still feeling so peih.
Blogging didn't help.
Maybe 24 hours Mcdelivery and GossipGirl will xP

oh bah, I want him so badly O.o

touch.

2008-01-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

Had utterly no mood to blog these days,
but I think after typing a few shits I'll get into it slowly.

Things to update.
· the oh-so-long-ago trip to Langkawi
· Outings with the girlies
· New Year's Eve!
· Something bout something which I don't recall now
· Trip to the salon. Curls! wheeeeeee.
Sooo lazy.

My blog is currently for invited readers now, which is quite obvious and was unnecessary to be mentioned -__-
Until I figure out how to encrypt my posts then I'll open it back up.

I know I could just go, 'fuck it la'.
But I know its not me who's getting fucked up for nothing at the end of day although I'll say the backstabbing is bad enough, its the innocent ones getting bugged for no good reason.
I had enough of unnecessary drama.
Especially one cause by a guy -___________-

@!$!@#%!&
Why is every song so fucking emo.
Emo? not cool.

*

Didn't sleep the night before till 6 in the morning o.O
I blame Tila Tequila, indirectly XiaXue and Trent for featuring her in their post.

She's not super duper hot, more towards the porn-ish hot.
But her body..

Anyhoo, what caught more of my attention is she had this reality tv show 'A Shot at Love', the catch is, she's BIsexual.

So there's 16 dudes and 16 chicks tonguing her in the show.
Some of the guys are hot, some were..errr.

O.O Couldn't stop watching and staring at the dudes and chicks body.
Damn toned.

and for guys, one thing you'll get hooked is watching some tongue action from the girls.
HAHA.
I know thats what got my guy friend still watching after he said, I'll just see how's it like on the first part of Epi 1.
lol, ended up watching the whole episode 1 did you? ;)

For me, I ended up watching 5 episodes -__-
that explains why I slept so ~~late~~ early.
5 more to go I think.

I. Should. Stop.

oh well, How I Met Your Mother's up next ;D

loves.

2007-12-31T17:11:00.000+08:00

Wanna be back by the beach,
calm, soothing, peaceful, chill,
anndd...
(;

New Year,
New beginnings,
New possibilities.

Cheers!
Have a great new year's eve!
xoxo.

Rush.

2007-12-31T17:02:00.000+08:00

Wow.
A year's gone so quickly,
in 11 months+ from now, I'll be 20 =/
Doesn't feel like its been 2 years since I was just back in Form 5, killing myself with SPM.
Now, it just seems so peanut.
Uni's hell.

2008,
I'll be second year,
I'm gonna try to stick as 'Single, but unavailable'.
Probably.
Hard to say with the stupid love bug -__-
Shit loads of resolutions.
haha.
will post shit later if I'm not too lazy.

ahh shits, it's already 5.
haven't started getting ready yet for tonight.

Gonna have din din with May Yi, maybe drop by WH's place for a get-together, then most likely to Kevin's place for nye since I missed the Christmas one.

omg.
what to wear!

-____-

2007-12-30T12:11:00.000+08:00

I don't know how many criticism I can take and
let go for this couple of weeks.

I. Am. Gonna. Blow. Soon.

I'll kill yoouu!

2007-12-28T23:03:00.001+08:00

I remember watching this in Eugene's blog.
Hilarious.
and its adorable.

I can't cure this addiction to

2007-12-28T01:58:00.000+08:00

muruku.

-____-

found a really nice indian stall around AC that sells really nice ones.
2 bucks one packet.
mmmmm.
should have bought more.
almost half gone.

aaaaaah.
I wants!!

I am soooo gonna become fat.
=/

2007-12-26T15:32:00.001+08:00

Enough is ENOUGH.
I want to start a clean slate,
I want to start the new year without dwelling bout the past,
and now I can't, your bringing up unneccesary drama.
I need to settle this before the new year.
and like I said,
enough is enough.
Get over it, move on and we can go on with our lives.
I don't like being angry.

in advance ;)

2007-12-24T04:34:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas!!!
xoxo

aaaah.
In less than 2 hours I'll be leaving home for Christmas.
Jason said he might come to my rescue.
He better =.=
hehe xD

I. Am. Not. Excited. Bout. Christmas. This. Year.
bite me. -__-
probably the reason going back to hometown without internet and the Christmas spirit.
Dim Sum for brunch and steambot for dinner.
not my ideal Christmas la.
and I wanna chill in PJ.

plus,
close friend of mine invited me to his house to spend Christmas with his family.
Tempting, dear. TEMPTING.

But.
I need to spent time with my granny and aunts and uncles and cousins and if possible my nephews! and oh yea, my parents.
oh wow now I sound excited.
hah.

I totally know what I'll be doing.
Watching my How I Met Your Mother and Grey's Anatomy!!
weeeee.

Ignore me.
Enjoy your Christmas loves!
I know I will be too on that day.

(:

2007-12-24T01:06:00.000+08:00

I was angry.
Probably just a lil.
Its totally not worthy.

Mister you. If he ever read this, we totally need to clear out some serious misunderstandings.
I don't like whats happening, I don't like being called a loser.
Its okay for me to joke bout me acting bimbo sometimes,
but hell no, you don't call me one.

So many things I wanna say.
But what's the point rights?
He won't believe it anyways.

Gosh.
I don't know whats happen to us.
This was not the way it should be.

After reading what I read.
Wow.
I didn't know I was still in love with him and I'm doing all this to get back at him.
Like OMG.
I didn't realize..wait, know Derick has ESPN,
oh oops, silly me with my bimboness, i meant, ESP.

Seriously, whatever happen to confrontation?
Why can't he just talk to me straight to the face.
Why can't he CLARIFY things before jumping into conclusions.
Why can't he just prove that he has some balls.
okay that was harsh. Sorry.
But yea, I'm here.
Just stop torturing everyone else and just tell me to fuck off already if thats what needed to be told.
And oh, don't need to bother trying to oh I don't wanna hurt her cause hell, damage's been done.

The fact that come on, chill la, my heart was never broken,
its the fact of how the aftermath is thats weird.

Shit, he broke the news to me.
I'm suppose to be Icy Cold Bitch and say oh okay fine cool.
Tears + bullshits + emotional outburst = expected. CHILL.
Don't need to make a big fuss out of it.
I'm still human are't I.

Funny thing is that his not queer bout how fast I went, ah fuck it la, it meant nothing.
Hrm.
Oh well.

Seriously la.
I'm daaammmmn malas to layan people like this laa.
Bitching? yes. I have estrogen, gimme a break.
I don't know whats his excuse though.
But revenge? Everyone knows me better than that.

So many comments, so many judgements, so many accusations, so many bullshit.
Stop whoring and be a man and face me like you should have long before.

2007-12-23T19:52:00.000+08:00

OMFG.
I am so pissed its not cool anymore =.=
friends who know me well knows that jeany here don't get mad easily.
yes I don't.
at least try not to.
but lately my heart's been boiling.

If he has something to say,
goddamnit just say it.
stop sneaking around telling other people,
'oh Jean is still SOOOO in love with me, she's taking revenge on me.'
'oh Jean can't forget the greatest love I provide for her'
'OH JEAN just get over me and we'll be friends again just that (wait for it) I'm not ready though'

-_________________________________________________________-

I fucking hate cowards.

Didn't expect it from you of all people.

YES. I know by talking, ranting, explaining bout what happen means that I'm not over it.

GET IT.
I've move on 2 days after it was over.
now, GET THAT please.

Friends like Kevin, PV, Vinie and many more were there for me when I was freaking down for my assignments.
I had my coursemates online everyday to chat and discuss with me bout our assignments and we put up with each other and helped each other when we were having shitty times.
and course, he wasn't there for me because I understand and was fine with it cause he needs to do his assignments.
Therefore, I grew closer with the friends I have now.

Don't fuck with me bout going out with them and oh you weren't there too.
ain't my fault they didn't call u.
even more, don't fuck with me asking my friends to at least go meet her to cheer her up cause she needs it.
They don't, wait they didn't need you to tell them that.

and don't talked to me bout love.
don't shit with me.
your ~~not~~ weren't even close.

there could be happy ending to all this.
maybe I screwed it up, but I know I didn't fuck it up.

just try to learn not to mess with my head.
feelings? yes.
that? no.

(:

cheers.

Dishwalla (:

2007-12-18T13:29:00.000+08:00

2007-12-18T13:15:00.000+08:00

Helping May Yi to sell this 2 sexay tops
(:

Worn once,
like for a couple of hours.
Free size

uk6/8
Brand new!
I would love to have em too,
but I'm like super broke |:

Both for RM25 each.

Now,
ain't that a steal?
;)

Any questions just drop a comment, msg, or mail me.

stupid wires.

2007-12-18T03:10:00.000+08:00

I.Need.To.Shift.My.Modem.Upstairs.Again.

Someone please teach me how to fucking set up the wireless router.
oh shit, that reminds me.
I should return it and buy one my own.
-_-

Can't stand the whole world trying to talk to me when I'm online doing my things.
its distracting!!
and ALLLLLLL my mom watches is AFC.
stupid asian food channel.
is it? whatevvv la.

take the chocolate, take the garlic, take that chicken, heat this, heat that, cut this, cut that, chop this, slice that, boil it, stuff it, bake it, EAT IT.

OMG like the temptation is not enough la.
and their voices damn annoying -_-
If not its Miami Ink.
Don't get me wrong. I love that show.
but hearing Ami's voice every night's kinda annoying.

and god knows why my mom don't sleep early.

and once she does,
daddy hogs the tv.

there's NO PEACE downstairs!
so thats why when my house is quiet,
something's up.
T.T

documentaries after documentaries,
CRIME AND INVESTIGATION,
GOOOOOOLLLFFF,
and OMGla NEWS.
-___-

I have the world's boringest parents.

and it seems that when IM NOT AROUND.
my dad happily watches E!
O.o

She's baaaacccckk.

2007-12-17T15:52:00.000+08:00

haha.
4 nights of Langkawi was..
terlalu-fied CHILLING.

all I did was,
chill chill and chill.
-__-

too lepak weih there.

we took like 341372365 pictures.
haha.
more like 400.
editing them is gonna be a pain in the arse.

will blog bout it later.
^^

*

remember how much I was ranting bout Sony T-200.

HEHS.

did I get it?
nopes.

Daddy came back just in time from India,
the morning I left for Langkawi.
and he came back with a digi cam.

moment Kevin saw my face he knew, so I had to add
' Its not sexy but its HOTTTT. '
wwwhhheeeeeeee*

Canon Ixus 960 IS

just in time for me to bring there xP
though he was a bit reluclant.

lucky didn't recommend Sony.
this. ones. more. syioks.
but I don't think the ownership is mine anymore ):
aahhh well.

I'm still kicking my ass for being so fucking careless.
I had a-lost-my-handphone scare in Langkawi.
-___-
I'll never learn.

I miss the sand. =/
came back to PJ feeling a bit lost.
I couldn't wait to see my laptop,
but totally stoned when I did.

....

I still feel stoned.

Let It Die*Foo Fighters

2007-12-13T04:32:00.000+08:00

In too deep and lost in time
Why'd you have to go and let it die?
Beautiful veins and bloodshot eyes
Why'd you have to go and let it die?

Hearts gone cold and hands were tied.
Why'd you have to go and let it die?
Why'd you have to go and let it die?

Do you ever think of me?
You're so considerate.
Did you ever think of me?
Oh, so considerate.

sleep-mychemicalromance

2007-12-13T02:57:00.000+08:00

I do not like this at all.
I do not like what's going on.
From friends to us to frenemies?
I don't like being spiteful.
I don't like being revengeful.
I don't like being angry.
I don't like being sad.
I don't like being hyper one minute to being upset.
I don't like being what I am for the past month.
I want to believe in what you said but you contradict yourself.
I want to trust you are a good friend but I hear things that are not very nice that made me upset then angry.
I want to believe I could look at you and forget everything that's happen but I don't think I can.
I want to start over.
I don't want to dwell on you anymore.
I don't want to pretend I'm strong.
I need to forget you.
I need you to have some balls to face me.
I wish we didn't end the way it did.
Yes, I know it did and fuck that.
You didn't go easy on me if you think you did.
I can be mad all I want and you have no right to be upset for what I say or how I feel.

You did it.
Not me.
Now, stop acting like a sadfuck.

shut up, jean -__-

2007-12-12T19:49:00.000+08:00

Edita Somasundram!
quickly come la woman..I'm gettting anxious.
HEHS Xp

*

BAH o.O

Mr. Leow isn't back yet.
I'm flying off at 1845 tomorrow.
I haven't bought what I need to buy yet.
I haven't gone to see May Yi and Sandra yet.
I HAVEN'T BOUGHT MY CAMERA YET.
I haven't thought of how I'm going to the airport tomorrow.
I haven't even pack yet.
I don't even know where I'm staying.
I don't even know whether I should be going for this trip.
I don't even know what I'm doing during the trip.
-___-'''
kinda dejavu with my last visit to there.
but this time I'll be there for 4 nights and 5 days.
and I can tan like helllll
but got no camera to entertain ):

argh, fuck it la.
I needed some chill out time off anyways.

Revenge is sweet (:

2007-12-11T19:09:00.000+08:00

Ooh, ooh baby
Touch me and I come alive

edited:

I totally forgot to blog what I wanted to blog at the first place
-__-
woke up this morning with a surprisingly no headache state (:
happily walked to my notebook to check my mail till I start hearing my mom shouting and screaming.
ok, that was exaggerated.
she was freaking out cause she had to signed a register letter FOR ME from the postmen.
what went through my mind was,
oh shit I'm getting sued?! but, for whatt?!!!!
and then
OH SHIT SAMAN.

mahai.
&$#@!#$%
reallly kena saman -___-

my first saman
:'(

stupid ldp.
speed limit was 90km/j,
caught in the act limit was 104km/j
104!
sheesh.

die loh.
that record was like, back in September.
I think I would expect more of those since I'm always rushing to college epecially this sem. (CHOI!)

14 km/j exceeded only.
300 whopping bucks fine.
my dad's gonna kill me =/

not funny okays for those who laughed!
haha.
-_______-''

*

went to LunaBar last night,
really nice bar,
shit is getting up to the bar.
parked at the 6th floor, had to take the lift up to the 7a floor, take the stairs down to 7th floor, enter the lobby, take the main lift to 33rd floor, and phew* there's the bar.
I'm gonna knock the person who tells me there's an easier way getting up.

stupid parking place.

we were quite gone we forgot which floor we parked in.
took us maybe half an hour to find our car.

Met quite a number of people yesterday.
woah.
hope I remember their names.
...
wait, I do.
haha. thankfully.
few were freaky though =/
I don't like freaky ppl,
crappy, happy, noisy ppl are still alright, freaky?
noooo.

Peevvveee totally spent us last night.
^^
so nice of him.
not really nice when cocktails after cocktails came.
almost forced me to drink another Graveyard -_-
CMI la weih.
I totally lost count how many we drank also.
like 6? 7?
I don't know.
haha. NO.
I couldn't drink that much.
more like hold 6-7 drinks.
hehs.
think I threw a tantrum being forced to drink also.
=/
sorry la.
I'm easily mad when I drink.
I know damn potong but I don't like headaches.
soorrryyy. )=

their cocktails were like..freaking KAO with liquor.
its good shit though.
shit adeline just told me she loves to. -__-

pictures are still some with sheena and pv.
need to go steal them. =/
so I just gotta deal with my maxx )=

Warning: Pathetic pictures ahead.

Sheena Kevin me
unsaveable edy this pic
shouldn't have on my flash
-__-

I didn't even notice KL Tower was there until..
quite long.

my so-called bulldozer which ditched me later in the night
.__.

whhheeee!
twin tower fogged.

Daddddddy,
quickly come back from India
so I could drag you to Sony Centre for my T200.
xD

I need a camera sooon, seriously!!
can die ones okay.
going to Langkawi either this thursday or friday.
hehs.
i love the holidays.
don't you?
(:

I shouldn't. I shouldn't. I shouldn't.
But can I?

nuff' said. ;)

2007-12-10T02:01:00.000+08:00

Listening to: The Vines - Get Free

as I mentioned in the earlier post,
I finally finished first year (woohoo!),
had an arshloch who broke up with me exactly 4-5 days before I turn 19th,
had the best oomph something ^^,
found out I LOST my Sony T-7, YES, my oh-so-sexy camera as Kevin would declared it,
had the best birthday eve with my loves,
had the worst drunken moment -_-,
had the baddest of all baddest hangover,
realize I ACTUALLY TOTALLY got over a person I thought I actually loved
in like what, 2 days after the break up?
had the realization that the arshloch was even a bigger arshloch than ever,
tsk tsk tsk.
had a total spontaneous and sweet company to the concert of the year, MyChemicalRomance,
got lost in KL for the hundreth time -_-
and found out I am SO BLESSED to have the best friends ever.

(:
I've never been so happy in my life before.
xoxo

*

teehee.

*

My Chemical Romance.

those that have been chatting with me online would know that
I've been totally horrendously annoying with me asking or telling them,
Do you wanna go for mcr?
omg I REALLY wanna go for mcr.
should I go for mcr?
._.

I know.
Sorry for being a total pain in the arse.
HEHS xD

I was probably sulking since this morning cause I had no company to the concert,
I could have followed Chian but didn't really want to be a lampost :P
and was bit broke spending 200 ish for that row.
everyone who wanted to go but gave me excuses like
got no money la, too last minute la, no tickets la, lazy la, not worthy la, finals la.
haha,
NO
I'm not blaming you guys.
I understand (:

Finally accepted the fact that,
fuck it la, if I don't get to go.

and to top it all up,
I kinda twisted my ankle and fell down on it yesterday.
so I think I pulled something la.
braking while driving and walking up and down the stairs has been a total bitch,
and u guys know there's like a million steps in my house -__-

so I finally thought,
its a sign for me to just put up and shut up bout the concert
since I SHOULDN'T be going to a concert with my kaki like that.

!@%^!&@##
opened the newspaper and they declared it as the concert of the year.
had the fuckiest feeling edy.
went online,
Zhen Sern happily told me his friend selling the tickets for 50 bucks.
waahhh.
ITS LIKE A SIGN.
ahahahahahah.

FORGET IT,
I'm so going to the concert.
Had to ffk CheeYuen for the 4th time.
so so sorrrrrryyy!! =(

called Kevin and my cousin.
Kevin was in doubt bout going, my cousin has finals tomorrow.
and the 50 bucks ticket ended into a bidding war.

long story short.
I managed to get hold of 2 tickets for 50 bucks ^^
Deliberately forced poor Kevin to go,
which he did.
(:
Hey, I'm not that evil okays.

and
course we were late,
but it was suhhweeeett!
glad I didn't missed it,
or I'd probably never let myself go.
and my kaki miraculously was not a pain in the gut
during the running and the jumping and the hopping and the walking.
but later on, sakkkitt ):
sheesh.

I have the MOST pathetic pictures.
not taken by my sexy camera but my sexy maxx.

Kevin (:
urgh don't mind the hair =/

Told you the pictures was pathetic,
but the band was superb,
especially when they played Teenagers and urm the last song, I forgot -__-
Famous Last Words?
haha.

I know all the pic shows is lights,
but if u squint properly you could see Gerard ;P
he was so fff-ing hot.

Thanks for accompanying me (:
hope you had fun,
I did!!

Fin.

2007-12-07T01:14:00.000+08:00

i once had a professor tell me
"when you think. . . you RUIN all that is good"
and then later in the semester
"you have created a language - you have A, B, and C. but you have no reason to be speaking"

so during my review i got up and said
"i'm not allowed to think, and i'm not allowed to speak;
so i did this without thinking and now i can't tell you about it"

AHAHHAHAHA.
the professor wasn't amused at all.
not me larh, some chick i got it off this site.
;P

funny la.

and THANKS to everyone who came and wished me.
once i get all the pics i can update fully (:

2007-12-05T14:12:00.000+08:00

Its been two weeks ish i've been abandoning this blog.
In that few weeks, I've finished my assignments, passed up everything, got my heart broken, got closer with my friends, going out more often, and somehow realize what happen wasn't the worst thing ever and that i'm having the best time anyways!
Thanks guys (; love u all.

So tonight, since miss Shidah's flying off to Europe for holiday tomorrow -_-
she's suppose to packed me into her suitcase, but its mostly filled up with clothes
we're going out tonight.
can't wait to hang out and have fun.

and i'm seriously okay guys.
(:

your breaking my heart, can't you see?

2007-11-20T20:27:00.000+08:00

I don't know what's worse.
Banging a tree or banging a bike.

=/

you, stupid you.

2007-11-19T01:45:00.000+08:00

i know i'm such a whiner, but what the heck, i'm whining to my deserted blog.

it seems stupid the fact that i force myself not to turn down the job for monsoon cup because it'll be a semi-vacation, getting paid (of course), the company and the MAIN reason as a FINAL deadline for all my assignments which currently is still unfinish and doesn't look like i could finish all by this saturday in the weee hours, but wtbloodyf la.

it seems stupid the fact the ~~i'm still down in the loops~~ and all my iTunes could play is super emo/sad/dying/hopeless/useless/suicidal songs.

it seems stupid that i couldn't even cry for almost 2 years cause i guess my heart went kinda numb and stoned to refrain from feeling more sad, pathetic and feeling vulnerable towards the opposite sex.

it seems really stupid the fact that i want to stop by crawling underneath the blanket and then have a good night sleep, but can't because i have to be up all night/morning finishing my assignments, thus, resulting some of my papers splats of rainfall.

annnndd, its totally stupid the fact that i don't sleep from 10pm to 7am everyday but konk-ed out later around from 7-8am to 1pm everyday since 2 weeks ago,
with everyone asking me, why don't u just sleep at night and do work in the morning?

cauussee,
its stupidey stupid that my brain doesn't function during the day but only at night.
fffing vampire. grr.

oh, did i mention that its even more stupid the fact that because and after all that, i'm actually having an eye infection due to a blockage in my tear gland or something like that.
dacryocystitis, gross, i know.

stupid irony.

and its also stupid that the reason for doing what i did till i got what i got was because i made a stupid and silly mistake and end up hurting myself and someone too (if i'm not wrong).

but its soo stupid that from this it became to that and omg i know i'm being selfish and stupid, but i can't take it anymore, i'm not use to it, i'm not feeling it, i want it back, and yes, i'm still thinking bout it and that i'm worried, scared and shit, vulnerable and no i'm not telling what is it but yea, i really really miss it and i'm so sincerely regretful and sorry and that the gap can still be fill, cause i believe and know it will if tried.

stupid the fact that it happened for a reason in a good and bad way cause a tractor finally hit me hard and accurate in the head.

and NOW,

its horrendously stupid that everything from music to tv shows to reminiscencing to accessories to bathing to ASSIGNMENTS to pictures to stupid malacca trip to yea, everything, is making my heart crumble and the feeling of wanting to burst.

BUT bloody hell,
my tear gland's block.
hence,
the disability to flood and thus, the oncoming of geramness.

not stupid that i feel much better after writing all that down.
seems stupid that i'm putting this here,
guess i'm probably high from lacked of sleep and red bull.

obviously, i'm officially such a brat and pathetic and depressed and
oh, you don't have to go nodding to that, i'm just amusing myself.

2007-11-15T13:14:00.000+08:00

With Me · Sum 41

I don't want this moment, to ever end,
Where everything's nothing, without you.
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile,
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

Through it all, I made my mistakes.
I stumble and fall,
But I mean these words.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, that I won't let go.

Thoughts read are spoken, forever in doubt.
And pieces of memories fall to the ground.
I know what i did and so, I won't let this go.
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

All the streets, where I walked alone,
With nowhere to go.
Have come to an end.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, that I won't let go.

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you don't know what you're looking to find.
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you just never know what you will find.

I don't want this moment to ever end.
Where everything's nothing without you.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, that I won't let go.

I believe.

2007-11-14T00:43:00.001+08:00

"Loving someone is giving them the power to hurt you,
but trusting them not to".
- Anonymous

I have to focus on my assignments despite everything!!
Everything will be okay before you know it,
just give it time,
time will work its way through,
though I need to stop being in denial so much,
urgh, this sucks,
its all totally my fault,
I knew and I shouldn't have,
I'm sorry.

not just yet.

2007-11-13T04:33:00.000+08:00

I think Ive already lost you
I think youre already gone
I think Im finally scared now
You think Im weak - but I think youre wrong
I think you're already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
But now Im relaxed - I cant be sure

I think youre so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think Im just scared - I think too much
I know this is wrong its a problem Im dealing

If youre gone - maybe its time to come home
Theres an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If youre gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz theres a little bit of something me
In everything in you

I bet youre hard to get over
I bet the room just wont shine
I bet my hands I can stay here
I bet you need - more than you mind

I think youre so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think Im just scared - that I know too much
I cant relate and thats a problem Im feeling

If youre gone - maybe its time to go home
Theres an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If youre gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz theres a little bit of something me
In everything in you

I think youre so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think Im just scared - do I talk too much
I know this is wrong its a problem Im dealing

If youre gone - maybe its time to go home
Theres an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If youre gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz theres a little bit of something me
In everything in you

2007-11-12T01:47:00.000+08:00

I've got updates on Edee's open house and my parents' party!
once I'm done with my acad drawings,
2000words report on presentation, and the 4000words essay,
unfortunately.

till then..

thanks for coming guys (:

it was awesome with all of you around.

The Letdown Takedown

2007-11-10T16:09:00.000+08:00

I feel things changing when I move
(It's a distant, it's a difference)
I cross this planet without you
(And you might call, it's a downfall)
It's one long night that I'm passing through
(It's a dark one, what have I done?)
It's one long night

Don't turn your back on me now
You can't do this
Don't say you can live without
You can't do this alone
How did I end up like this, the lonely one?
Your greatest takedown
You take me down

Left last night with a long goodbye
(With some red wine, through a phone line)
I told you thoughts that multiply
(That I don't know how to let go)
We've been here many times before
(Are you empty when you leave me?)
What's one more?

Don't turn your back on me now
You can't do this
Don't say you can live without
You can't do this alone
How did I end up like this, the broken one?
Your greatest takedown
You take me down
You take me down

I won't get by
I won't hear in time
I won't get by

Don't turn your back on me now
You can't do this
Don't say you can live without
You can't do this alone
How did I end up like this, the chosen one?
Your greatest takedown
You take me down

*

somehow I knew,
fact that I saw it coming,
and that I keep telling myself, 'won't one la',
and I know its totally not a big deal,
but yet,
I somehow felt let down.
like, if this happens, then thats that conclusion.
like a confirmation on something you know?

I know I think too much, but its somewhat not as excruciating as it seems.
makes you open your eyes, makes you realize a lot of things, good or bad.
unfortunately, it gets to you.
hard and fast.

I don't know how its gonna work,
I'm not a #1 diva,
heck, I don't even ask for much.
I think.
I mean, I could be worse.
course.

but whatever,
I shouldn't think/care/bother so much if the other party doesn't anyways.

Two can play that game, remember?

heck,
I'm engaged to my course anyways.

currys and murukus.

2007-11-08T16:14:00.001+08:00

Happy Deepavali!!
can't wait to go makan makan later at Edee's place.
wheeeee!!
I love spicy food.
and her mom's cooking?
Orgasmic.

shit, I need to drive to Klang.
OMG CENDOL WEIH.
urgh, need to hunt for my GPS.
don't know where it disappear to.

wtf, today is like the only day where I feel kinda free and relax,
instead of the other celebrations and birthdays.

Good news is, my Design102 submission's extended (again!) to Nov 22nd.
weee.
thank god is not after Nov 23. I'm starting work on the 24th.
yes. I know.
me? working?
I work too okays?

Bad news, I gotta finish the rest of the assignments by this week!!
shit.
1. Design Communications - Renderings
2. Culture 101 - Journal and Big Chart
3. Culture 102 - Journal and ESSAY
4. Btech - ACAD drawings

HEY. doesn't look a lot.
I bet there's more but I can't think of anything else.
bwahahaha.
oh well.
I just got to NOT PROCRASTINATE.
inner voice
LMAO, good luck leowmeijean!!

-__-

I wanna watch the BEEEE movie.
I absolutely love Jerry Seinfeld.
~~boyfriend~~ don't want to watch :/
so not cool.
hrmpf.
haha, I manage to force him :D
tomorrow!

and my parents' birthday celebration's this week.
yup yup, their birthday are like, 4 days apart?
lol, how sweet is that.
can't wait!!
thank god they postponed submission, if not I don't how am I gonna attend that.
their one and only daughter some more.
tsk.
-____-''

shoot, gps no battery.

2007-11-05T02:22:00.000+08:00

OMG.
I'm studying for tomorrow's exam on Ecological Sustainable Design.
and I tell you, I'm totally dying here.

Its been 2 whole years since I've read about CO2 or O2 or Carbon Cycle or Symbiosis or what fcuk.
and I was never. NEVER. good at science.
I'm so doomed tomorrow.
Hope and pray and wish I won't flunk tomorrow's paper.
I haven't sit for exam in like, a year or two?
English doesn't count!
!@#&!%@#!
aaaaahhhh.
I LOATH science.

I need you.

2007-10-29T01:25:00.000+08:00

you heartless.
i wanna rip, smack, bish bang blah.

ahh, no one can comfort thy self except for, thy self.

-___-
wtf.

De one and only Guggenheim Museum
by Frank Lloyd Wright
right? I hope I'm correct :P

and I present you an Austrian artist, Erwin Wurm's work of sculpture,
the Guggenheim..urm, deflating.

it's so cute, I just couldn't resist!

okay, I'm going back to die now.
I wish you could be more comforting.

2007-10-27T02:34:00.000+08:00

i miss you
and i'm hungry.

I'm stuck on you, like it or not.

2007-10-25T00:22:00.000+08:00

"Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle...
rather a beautiful reminder of just how strong true love can be."

weeeeeeeeeeee.

One of my foundation coursemate just joined a group in Facebook, and haha, I did too.

I don't need sex - the school of architecture fucks me all the time.

I know I've posted something similar to this, but what the heck, its funny and so true at the same time.

If you are architecture students you've probably experienced:

-the taste of wood glue
-changes in your vocabulary: homework to project, ball to sphere, etc
-you don't understand how somebody can spend less than $20 at the supplies store
-you hate people telling you "go to sleep" or "do you still have a lot of work?"
-your friends and you don't have the same concept of work "oh, well do it right before class"
-you've slept more than 20 straight hours on weekends
-you can easily discuss with authority the effects of caffeine on different drinks
-no matter the effort you put in a project, somebody will always say “why don’t you add this�? or “why don’t you change this here? or “i think that…but…yeah, its ok?
-you’ve heard all your ipod songs in a week
-you aren’t seen in public without bags under your eyes
-whenever you get invited somewhere, it is followed by “or do you have a lot of homework? *i bet most of my friends are nodding their heads now*
-you’ll dance ymca with a choreography without a drop of alcohol in your system
-you write down a quick message with rapidographs, lead holders, markers and ink
-you constantly make up excuses for courses that are not design related why you didn’t do your work
-you have more pictures of landscapes and places than of people
-your worst nightmare consists of not finishing a project
-someone once called you “lazy? and you wanted them murdered
*well, I am. but still xD*
-you can live without human contact, sunlight, food, but if your plotter’s ink runs out… chaos!!!
-when somebody lends you a Bic pen you look down at it
-you don’t care about sports cars, your favorite car is the one where you can put in your model and your huge computer
-you design spectacular things without the idea of the cost
-you have the modern mark: a blister in your palm’s hand for the constant use of your mouse
-everybody tells you how they admire your work, “but there is no money for it?
-you’ve gained the ability to sleep in whatever surface: pencils, keyboards, backpacks, your studio mates, food, etc
-you always have the idea that your project will always be recognized
-when you finally have free time to go out you keep thinking “who was the idiot that designed the restaurant’s bathroom? “who designed this menu? or “who designed this [chair, table, lighting, fork, etc]?
-you've been at many sunrises, yet you've never seen one *AMEN*
-you need to read all this in a facebook group to realize how weird your life is

-___-

noo, I don't hate my course that much, its just..uurm. well.
unexplainable if your not part of it.

I've been asking myself this since I've joined LUCT.
What would I be doing if I weren't in this course?
I actually totally forgot what would be my second choice, and
I just remembered.
Psychology.
heck, I couldn't even spell it correctly sometimes.
but yea, psychology.
now I remember, now I realize, damn.
too late edy. -__-

Is there such thing as architecture psychology?

Anyone?
no.
nevermind.

Architecture philosophy's too boring.
bleh.

Looking through that particular group made me realize,
I'm not the only one.
People too are like, in a way thinking bout what else would they be doing if it weren't for this.
and not to mention the fact that someone posted a discussion on which is the best energy drink.
haha.
Red Bull was my best friend.
Still is. Untill.
Derick showed me an article on how it killed people.
freaked me out =\

Had one after so long last night to pull an all nighter.
which was successful.
woohoo.
I seem to see the light now for my Design assignment.

Anyways, back to the topic.
Everyone seems to be immune to energy drinks and caffeine.
I know I am.
for caffeine that is.
Red bull still boleh.
even that damn double shot espresso can't.
wasted at least 20 bucks that weekend -__-

and not to mention that every student goes through the same shit,
omg, the comments the lecturers give you.
stumbled upon a few.

(during crit)
"Anyone got any matches... so I can burn this"

''i was actually inking my drawings way back in first year and a studio prof (not mine) came up to my desk, stood for about three minutes, tried brushing the lines off my page with his hand, and said to me "too late, its already in ink"

To someone in my studio:
"It looks like a rat."
He then proceeds to pen an outline of a rat around the drawing,
complete with whiskers and tail.
"See?"

A lecturer has one look a this girls model and tell her "Its so uninspiring. Its like a male orgasm, two seconds and its over.

Your architecture is very shallow,
your like the Paris Hilton of architecture

"I think something is missing in your project ... Yeah, architecture is missing".

p.s/ crit is like, urm, preliminary submission where you have lecturers or guest lecturers commenting on your pin up boards and model.

ouch!
haha.
its really funny, yes.
but it really does happen to us.
poor dude spend probably days drawing, and there it goes.
scary shit.

There's only one thing and one thing only that helps u to stay awake.

Fucking DETERMINATION.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
which I lacked.
):

teehee. I'll change to a not so depressing subject.
since today I finally bucked up my courage to go see my design tutor cause I've been totally MIA for urm, a few weeks. XD
I've got a phobia discussing design with lecturers =\
I do. Really.
Not good.

no tutorial marks ):

hope I don't fail.

ANYWAYS.

I wanted to have a small lil celebration.
haha.
to reward myself.
CHEWAH.
other people work till damn hard also still working, I finish one small thing already wanna celebrate. -_-
de-stress marr. XP

decided to check out Pyramid.
I know I hardly post pictures, so here goes (:

Atrrrriiiuuuuum~
try saying it in a opera singing voice XP

I see the design intention Mr. Designer.
*nods head*

pretty.

.__.
Where's your head at?
I actually like that song.
lols.

no editing needed on the mall's pictures.
lighting was nice (:

I think that atrium was the only thing that I fancied in the new wing of Pyramid.
very small place.
restaurants also not fully open!!
the shops are..not as wow grand as Gardens and Pavilion.

Funny how this three malls open almost at the same time.
If it was me, let the other mall open first, then people will get bored of the two, and open a new mall, which is exciting cause its urm. New.

okay, I'm crapping now.

downloading GossipGirl episode 6.
woot !

temptation killed me.

2007-10-18T23:47:00.000+08:00

I absolutely love Gossip Girl.

Downloaded 3 episodes few weeks back, and finally watched it all today.
teehee, I know I should be drowning myself with work,
but. I. just. couldn't.

My personal favourite

Penn Badgley

and the bad boy in the show,
looks waayy hotter with this haircut though.

Ed Westwick

Chace Crawford just look too, urm, pretty.

Can't wait for the download to complete!!!
and I'm soo gonna get those Gossip Girl books since I've heard that the show is soooo unlike the books.

weeeee!!

until then,
ASSignments here I come!

:D

i don't want to but i need. wait, i MUST.

2007-10-17T22:21:00.000+08:00

I've been shopping online non-stop.
don't give me that eww second hand shit.

thanks to a few lovelies out there, they come straight from suppliers.
brand new okays.

given no time for me to go out shopping anymore ):
actually now even if I go to malls I'll be wanting to eat GOOD food and also no mood to shop cause everything costs so expensive.
I CANT AFFOOORRDD LAAAHH.
and I'm so jealous of my beau.
hrmpf.

soo, shopping online.
since last month, I've purchased 2 skirts, 5 tubes, 4 babytees, 1 dress.
and I don't think I've listed everything cause I don't have very good memory.

OMG, damn frigging broke now.
after digging allowance from my mom, two days later I'll come begging for more again =/

NOT HEALTHY for my heart, cause I'll go lalala when my mom asked why so finish and
why are you sooo DAMN spendthrift these days.
but all the clothes are darn cheap okays, just that I ended up buying more than urm, 1.
and good deals are hard to come, and they sell out fast! have to grab em quick mar.

heehee
and plus all the good food me n derick's been eating.
BAAAHHH.

pokai lah wei.

read teri's blog, and she's on a restraining order from shopping.

I SHALL and WILL go on a SHOPPING BAN.

urm, after I get my hands on that 15in1 versatile tube and that OMG pinstripe vest I just saw with that cute lil racerback full of animals and the rainbow tankie top.

shoot, I did it again.

beautifully broken.

2007-10-15T23:12:00.001+08:00

my mid-term break's been a total bitch.

thousand and one things in my mind I wanna do, but obviously something always seemed to come up or confirmations became broken confirmations and plans becomes to dirt.

I can't stand my eyebrows!
you go to the damn shop, and few weeks later, bah.
you tweeze them every once in a while, few weeks later, bah.

they say cars are hard to maintain, but seems like our body is worse.

you don't know this, but I really needed that night out.
Thanks (:

I am so dumb,
everyone went to bed and I just realized I can hog the TV!
woohoo.
comedies here I come.
finally something that can make me laugh.

i don't think he knows how much i miss him.

happy happy raya (:

2007-10-15T01:56:00.000+08:00

Aidi, Teri, Shidah, Jean, Kamal

despite it being very badly editted in photoshop cause of the bad bad flash from my camera.
it looks like we're in heaven.
look at Teri's face, classic (;

weeeee.
great company, great food at Shidah's.
its nice having us meeting up after 2 months.
we HAVE to do it more often.
semesters ending soon!
and
halllo holidays.
:D

rock it.

2007-10-10T01:11:00.000+08:00

EcologicalSustainableDesign today was uber boring.
we had a guest speaker, looks like a very nice guy, but omg, boring.
didn't know what he was talking about.
sorry, sir.
took yr slides though! ill run through it later :D

as usual, me, derick and kevin will start to entertain ourselves.
this time?
with a camera.
hehe.
my sexay yet lala T7.

see my hair? my mom calls me SHIH TZU. laughed the hell out of derick.
hrmpf.

Derick went, ooo, Jesus Christ
Kevin went, waah like an angel.
Derick went, omg, heaven would be a total havoc if I was one.
Me went, *nods* -___-

Everyone was really bored,
fine, probably just the humans sitting behind.
Hopefully mr Siva didn't catch us in action, mr Harris or Razak (I can't remember their names masing-masing) just couldn't be bothered.

the couple behind that could doze off anytime.
Jovi and TamTam (:

I need more sleep.

he was actually sleeping till I took out the camera :P

Kevin with his always funny expressions.
you should see him when his drunk.
haha.

we wanna go home ):

aaahh.
sienneess.

ooohh yea, something cracked me up when I was in class.
not gonna named names cause I know how that feels.

Person A: oohh, I did mine on HSBC Hong Kong.
Person B: ooooo, where's that?
Person C: err, o.O, HONG KONG?
Person A, C, me: HAHAHAHAAHA.

hehe, I know, mean.

Just to balanced up,

Someone on our table burped, quite loudly in fact.

Edee · Jeanie

ugh, N-A-S-T-Y
N-A-S-T-Y?? (spelling it out)
(*thinking) hrmm, must be some term like ASAP but I can't place it into its meaning.
Oh well, whatever.
OMG, OMG. ITS NASTY, NASTY!
(stares at jean for a whole long minute and said)
You know what, I'm not gonna say anything.
OOOOHHHHH. O.o
my bad. XD

told that boi and ended up getting teased the whole day. -__-
you meaniee!!

I've been hearing and seeing loads of ambulans and police sirens.
PEOPLE I know its puasa month and raya's coming,
but please drive safe and stop robbing out of others cash.

did u guys catch a really bad thunder storm the other night?
my whole upstairs was like shaking and rumbling, and it felt as if like someone terrorize our neighborhood :/

*

my lil' havoc heaven (:

Im famished.

2007-10-09T10:38:00.000+08:00

"Love ain't nothing but sex misspelled".
-Harlan Ellison, Title of book (1968)

HAHA.
and NO I don't totally agreee with that.

had the best sleep ever.
6pm from yesterday till 9am this morning.
don't go accusing me of being a pig, I hardly slept during the weekend.

rush rush rush for submission yesterday and not like I had a full completion of anything to submission but at least I did!!
thankfully.

and to find out, there's no marks for yesterday's submission.
!@#%&!!@%#!

Brain not functioning.

2007-10-07T03:42:00.000+08:00

I can't bring myself to look at my design assignment anymore
my dad just conteng on it
-____________-
hrmph.
my ground floor and first floor plan.
damn CMI la.

Britney's Gimme More so so only larh.
#1 on iTunes somemore
*shakes head*
she's done a better job than this.
and she needs pole dancing lessons,
but her buntut.
woot.
okays, I should stop talking bout chick's body.

Britney's Gimme More if you want more.
omg, cheesy.

Britney Spears - Gimme More [World Premier]

Just had a slap on the face bout high school memories.
remember how I use to see Teri's face everyday in class.
since I sit next to her.
teehee.
you must be wondering what this short girl sitting next to the talllllll one.
fortunately, they don't give a shit on the height crap anymore in the sitting arrangements XD

from school.
you know what, this was our only two of us picture in uniform that I have.
u had more pictures with liz -_-
haha, oh yea i remembered hating taking picture in school.

to my house.

to going out with alex.

to 2 years later,
still eating ice cream like school kids.

ooo! you can see the evolution of hair.
haha.
I'm bit whacked these days.
blame the lacked of sleep and caffeine.
:D

i miss high school ):
i miss stress-free.
i miss our chats!!
annd yum chas.
i miss pontenging weih! remember ter?
hahaha.

don't bother scrolling down if you don't want to see leowmeijean's cmi picture.

teeheee XD

insane in the membrane.

2007-10-07T02:08:00.000+08:00

It won't be soon before long.

TOTALLY.

I'm sooo sleepy now, hence the need to go online and be normal for a while.
tonight was my second night of Double Espresso Shot.
bahh, thanks to a Starbucks dude who recommended me that when I was feeling very sleepy and needed to drive home from Midvalley.
remembered being hyper for awhile and when I reach home,
KONK-ed.

I decided on Starbucks today.
went San Francisco Coffee last night.

went in,
Hi! Double espresso shot please (:
*snickers* what? double shot?
err, you have those rights.
*thinking* huh? it IS Starbucks weih.
err, YEA. but are you sure you want that? i mean like, have you tried it before?
-__- yea.
okay. (giving me a look)

hrpmf, underestimating me.
then when the coffee came,
he asked,
need sugar or not!!

double sheesh.
let a girl have her coffee in peace man.

unnecessary.

ITS NOT WORKING !!
!@%#!

It's Britney, bitch.

2007-10-05T17:04:00.000+08:00

can't wait to catch her new clip tonight.
haha.
heard that there's loads of photoshopping on her abs.
her body's still hot though.

weee.

confrontation.

2007-10-05T11:37:00.001+08:00

yup.
don't we alll looooove it.

scratch that.

everyone, nearly everyone I know avoids confrontation.
I don't like it, but I always try my best to voice out, which, always put me in trouble or deep shit.
but its so weird when something happens between friends, and we just act as if nothing happen.
like seriously, are we still in high school or what?
whatever happen to let's not hide from each other how we feel.
it SUCKS to see this happen.
annd unfortunately this is happening to me not once, but twice within college.
and it sucks so bad cause.
*TADAAAH*
their my classmates, hence, seeing them from monday to saturday.

it is soooo stupid.
classicly stupid.

let's just say that there's this person who happily quit a group assignment 2 days before submission.
its okay, I'm still chilling.
but blardy hell, do not lie to me laaaa.
soo not cool man.
but yea he did, and he told the other member instead.
leaving me hanging =/
and since then,
we have NEVER spoken a word on this assignment. (it's been 2-3 weeks)
never.
the irony eh.
my friends knew I was pissed.
still can remember the look on my friend's face when she saw me lending my pendrive and saiying oh yea, sure!
hrmm.
I never knew why he quit.
I'm so tempted to talk to him,
but...
*sigh*

and..
I'm sure most of you know bout my urm, past.
that hateful dude who sees me in college with that 'bitch, i hate you' look.
yea, him.

its BEEN ONE YEAR.
GET THE FUCKING OVER IT.

like seriously.
I really really just wanna ask him what's wrong and yes, that it was my fault, yada yada.
but shit happens dude, SHIT happens.
people change.
but I can't bring myself to.
its the past y'all, like just fucking move on.
get a life.
I tried to be nice, I tried not to care,
but it just sucks to see someone hating me.
HEHS.
yea yea you can gimme that stare now.

kays la, his the only one thats bugging the hella of me.
just look at this,
loook at this.
its so to me, I know la.
don't try to console me.
sue me, I'm being perasan.
the fact that I smiled at him yesterday.
HAH.
I like to smile at people I know okay.

click here if you wanna see larger image :D

its too fffing looonng.
lemme quote it out.
'Next time after you see me, don't force yourself to smile. It's just plain ugly, and you know who you are to me'

now tell me I'm not being paranoid.
and the worst thing is he always have this kinda personal message, and he just did something nasty to me the other day. -___-
not cool.
BAH.
not nice la like that.

WHAT SHOULD I DO LAHH PEOPLE.

I very the beh-tahan anymore.
and I can't just fuck it cause it gets to me.

I'm just afraid one day he'll come and hunt me down to kill me or something.
how can you hate a person for so long, and so much.
):

my exes loved me, and still do as a friend.
HAHAHA.
kidding kidding.
well, long story short,
we're still friends. (:

I guess we are alll just a bunch of fakers inside us.
but like seriously,
makes me wanna just bitchslap the hell out of these two.

I'm not being judgemental but..

2007-10-01T05:00:00.000+08:00

ehh..no offence to whoever that will get offended.
this is just me thinking too much at 5.20 in the morning.
:D

I honestly don't get the momma pappa daughter son stuff people are still using/calling each other.
if your in primary/high school, accepted.
college? wahsai.
haha.

I just don't get it, never did.

I know about respecting people's blog when you read em cause it's their blog.
let alone those nonsensical humans who go spamming people's chatbox calling them bitches and stuff like that.
i understand why they do it cause it does sometimes get to you.
*not saying any of my loves okay (:
just generally, but still, its people's damn blog.
keep your opinions to yourself.
you should be glad enough that there's people who blog about their life for you to read.

I don't know whether is it a cool thing to see form 2-4 kids out clubbing and drinking their hearts out.
I know its a normal thing.
but now? its like, majority y'all.
is it a good thing to be so exposed when you're that young?
I remember me n teri were just getting into shopping, boys, school crap, and urm, girls stuff.

and I remember me n ean used to talked bout how he goes to PuayChai and see primary school kids wearing erm, less cloth on them now.

hrmm. I sound really old fashioned now.
but it just feels wrong.

I remember having this conversation with yuen the other day too when he saw standard 1/2/3 holding hands-paktohing.
so cute la.
it was usually play play around.

but now things seems to be getting serious.
and me n him ended up concluding
omg, imagine them having sex when their 12, enjoyable fuck mer?

Imagine drinking/clubbbing when your 14, have sex when your 16, growing wilder when your legal, getting bored when your in college, its like been there, done that.
how to enjoy college life weih.
hrmm.
we are definitely growing older.

and I'm a late one.
-_-
i know.
laugh laaa.
haha.

okay, I'm officially too bored and too lazy to do my assignments to blog about CRAP.

bullseye.

2007-10-01T00:15:00.000+08:00

I AGREE.
double ha.

**

this thursday.
according to xueli's blog.
the performance is at 5pm and 7pm.
hopefully it'll be punctual.

I can then try to rush to topshop :P
not that I'm planning to buy anything.
but just in case.....
xD

though I kinda feel weird going to see them cheer.
don't know why. )=
I miss you guys, but feels like I shouldn't be there.
oh I have no idea what I'm talking about.
feels like something's missing.
like me being with you girls.
hrmmmm.
I'm not talking any sense, am I?

***

ANYWAYS.

jom?

quote of the day

2007-09-28T00:51:00.001+08:00

"No one is too young for love,
because love doesn't come from your mind,
which knows your age,
but from your heart,
which knows no age."

not like I can afford -_-

2007-09-28T00:36:00.000+08:00

hrm,
I'm sure not many know bout this yet since I haven't receive any email regarding it.
so haha,
thank me.

Clickety click for better view.

I'm still hesitating whether to go onot,
since Ultimate's performing on that day,
and I have class till 530.
bah ):

I wanna the goodies but blardy class starts at 2.

teri, mau pegi tak?

2007-09-24T05:10:00.000+08:00

four words.

you selfish irresponsible little prick.

(:

I'm getting into this..not good.

2007-09-24T02:15:00.000+08:00

Today's horoscope was somewhat good.
For me.

The Bottom Line
Keep abstaining from that vice, and soon you'll lose the taste for it altogether.

In Detail
All the willpower you've been relying on lately is still going strong, so have no worries that you will succumb to any irresistible forces today. The charm that your vice holds for you is fading ... you just need to keep abstaining, and soon you will lose your taste for it altogether. Plus, if you encourage your newly found inner strength to grow, you will be able to use it in different contexts in your life. Get ready to begin a very empowered phase of living.

Hope I do.